DESTINY

2006-11-20T17:40:00.000+08:00

yo peeps...i'm back and yes i'm finally back to blog again.I proudly announced that i'm over and done with the entire A levels.Once and for all.yeppep.i'm not ever going to touch the most hateful subjects on earth as long as possible.And play as much as i can now before i get down to serious stuff like looking for a job.my mum just wouldn't let me off even for one week and keep on nagging and nagging. i juz manage to get online to check my email and stuffs today with the help of someone.My com is down after my sis had received a "virus" containing file which cause the entire com to break down once again..like how it used to die on me juz last year.So...yepp...wouldn't be able to get online for quite some time.I'm grateful that the pc broke down just at the right time cuz den my sis wouldn't be able to touch on it and distract me from my revision for the A.I just cannot stand it whenever i had to ask her to switch off the com after my afternooon nap or shower.but come to tink abt it...right now..it juz doesn't feel right not being able to touch the keyboard and only facing that non-ringing nor vibrating hp.Staring into blank spaces whenever i'm not outside and not being able to log into litespeed to check for announcements regarding the papers.

i'm not able to blog for long and so shall wait till i get my com repaired before i upload the nitty gritty details which wat i have been doin so far for fear that all these memories will one day be forgotten by me as time past.but it's gg to be a long wait though.But i will never forget the times where i hv to mugg for papers on my birthday during the O and A levels.Some frens hv forgotten but some rmbed...some make an effort to send me a msg or letter.i thank you all who did.btw...my blog is one year old now..

2006-09-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

I really tot that i'm ready for the worst and i dun care anything abt the damn results anymore...i dunnooo...when i saw xinyu crying...i tot...but...i really dunno.

And today is like i have to beg mr tay to teach me....somewhat i feel thiis way...actually wan ting is right abt sth...mr tay can get so irritated by me so easily is because of the long term accumulated (constant questioning of stupid qns).He said that a stupid student doesn;t need a teacher as well...den is he tryin to say that in my case..i am hopeless?He wanted me to apologize bcus of the previous entries and that he dun wanna see my face...kept askin me to go look for my tutor at home instead.even though i have more qns...i dare not ask...you can see or sense that he...juz want me to piss off?that i'm not sure thou.

But...i have to say okie...first...so wat if he has seen my blog...he shouldn't mention it as and when he like,right? Secondly..i dun actually mean what i say...i'm just exagerating things sometimes.And thirdly.....yes..no doubt i mention forget abt mr tay teaching me...but i'm desperate for someone who can teach me physics,and so i dun care who teaches me as long as i can learn...it's because i'm afraid of him now..i dun dare to ask him qns...he cannot stand students askin him fundamental basic concepts which he may have repeated many times...you may not see it or feel my seriousness abt improving my physics...u tink i dun wan to learn my basics well..once and for all?intellectual...what is it actually?my brain works accordingly to who i am...and not anyone else.

He's actually demoralizing me at this period of time.He's actually like judy tan.When Bin hua ask her which i noe like real stupid qn...she shld jus be glad tt at least he's asking her and not keeping mum abt stuffs he doesn't understand.But she jus said that at this point of time...u are still asking me this type of qns?what have you been doin?ya...all teachers are like that...no matter how good u may be in chem,phys or maths.And to tink that tml we have to arrange to see her for consultation bcuz we score O and F.How she teaches or where she stands..our class gladly noe oursleves very welll...she shouldn't be suan-ing us as if we were all gone case.

Mr loke have been giving encouraging comments like wat yu have said..but i still dun dare to approach him for qns...he's too scary out of all the teachers.Mr Yee too have always been very encouraging...he's being optimistic i tink...lets hope.

So my prelim results----

GP-41/100(D7)--slight improvement but marks vary alot each time,so doesn't make a diff
Chemistry-38.5/100(O)-Expected but should work harder,really drop alot since O lvls
Physics-44.6 rounded up to 45(E)-jus manage to pass but it was real disappointing,expected higher
Maths-Not confirmed,but should be (D)

trying to figure out what mr kwek means by the 3Rs

2006-09-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

P.S.KFC.Cafe Cartel.Shop.Neoprints.The Face Shop.Photo Taking.Train.Home Sweet Home

Jestyn~Mabel~Yucai~YiYuan

TJC phys prelim paper so difficult...dunno how to do =(

2006-09-25T15:17:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day i'm taking a break away from school...after the "long" break...been slacking long enuf.I'm not yet really to plug myself into the power point inside my room and leave myself to get charge up till the 1st oct.I cannot change the habit of "waiting till the last min to get things done"...i dun like to do so too...but it can't be help cus i'll be out with my frens the next few days to cheer myself up before i start to chiong in this 1 month and 17 days long race.

I dunno how stress up i'm gg to get...i may break down anytime...but i hope i dun...for one day of mental failure means few days of depression....who noes what will happen the next day rite?Or even during the exams period?Although this is not a good way...but i'm sure panodols will help and i'm preparing 24 tablets for it.

I've been looking at my frens blog and deres one common line i would see...dat is to score well for the upcoming A levels.Who doesn't want to score score well...but i oso seen cases of ppl who put in a certain amt of hard work but does not get the equal amt of success.I rmb writing an GP essay,qn..Hard work or talent?which is better?I took my stand towards the hard work side but deep down...i noe i dun agree and dun experience the same conclusion that i took for my stand.

I tink i shall just be realistic abt what i can achieve or not achieve...i'm not gg to set any targets for the A's for the higher your aim is...the greater the disappointment you will have.As my mum have always tell me...girl...just try your best!!!

I really pin all my hopes on my tutor to help me now...hope i can absorb watever she says from now till the A's.She's the only one i can rely on other than myself.

Going to meet up with jestyn and mabel tml for dinner...elton for movie on thurs(haha...he volunteered)....hope i can still have the mood to crap with them after checking of the papers in sch.

2006-09-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

AHHHH...my whole body was aching when i woke up today...that goes to show how little i've exercised ever since we stopped pe in school.Woke up earlier today to wait for my tutor to come but she told me she having diarrhoea due to excess consumption of nasi lemak.Haiz...den i have nothin to do for the next two hours le.So i switched on the DVD player and watched one of the dvds that chewy lent me on sat.Chewy was rite..the "Movie Date" was a no brainer comedy show.I was luffing from the very beginning and i noe my maid was also watching it behind my back....to make it simple...she was eating snake la.Yea...most of the time i was rolling on the floor and laughing like mad...and after that...i had to ask her to help me up cuz i couldn't move at all...gosh...and now my buttocks hurt too...Wanted to watch ice age 2 too...but i din understand what was gg on and so i went to bed again after 5 mins.

I was so free such that i decided to try the nyjc 2004 phys prelim paper 1 and 2...crosses XXX all over.No time to ask my tutor tml cuz i've decided to spend the rest of the tym working on my chem.I wish that Jack was with me now.Mr tay?forget it...dun wan to end up being frustrated again.For the time being...i shall juz work on my chem first.

2006-09-23T23:41:00.000+08:00

Brunch at swensens in the morning...it was close to lunch time but i was not very hungry.But i still force the food down my empty stomach.I still have to eat eventually.So i had a salmon and mushroom baked rice...the rest of em' had chicken baked rice.Jes ordered fish baked but samantha ate it by mistake...cuz of the waitress who told us it was chicken.Anw...sammy couldn't make out the difference btw chicken and fish.

I helped them save money and shimu said tt shifu will be very proud of me cus i did something useful w/o his guidance...hehe!!yea...so we ordered the ice cream which was on the hse cuz its sammy's b'day..3 scoops of ice-cream shared and we all left swensens with a full stomach but empty pockets.Total cost of 70 plus. took some pics with chewys cam but too bad her com spoil...cannot upload..gonna do so in sch on tues.Den we proceeded to take neoprints...lots of commotion while taking and designing the pics...but we had one pic missing and green spots appeared instead.Went to buy jy's album at sembawang music store which cost me another 21 bucks.Shopped for pris and jes's belated belated b'day prez but only jes manage to grab a blouse at giordano. They wanted to get home early...so we ended the walk in j8 at 3 plus....argh...still so early...i haven step out of my hse ever since the day prelims ended and now i have to get home.But i've gt jy to accompany me thru'out the bus trip home.

Lying in bed for less than half an hour and here comes chewys msg...askin me whether wan go play badminton at punggol cc...tgt with serene.wanted to take a short nap before gg to meet them at 6pm.So when i was abt to slp...comes Sheng En's sms...his msges always come at the wrg tym. Close my eyes for abt 10 min and times up...diao....

I ended up late and i met a new fren...serene's senior,grace.They booked the court for an hour only but since no one booked the other court...we played happily till 8.45pm...haha..friendly match durin the last 15 mins...i lost to grace and chewy lost to serene...emerging champion was grace...guess i was too tired to carry on...not trying to deny the fact tt i'm lousy but i really din take the game seriously...ended up 3-7...lol....took some pics and home sweet home.

PS.Mr tay was very well-informed of our whereabouts...but shld have let tricked him and ps him...haha

2006-09-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

It was not untill 11pm when chewy msged me and told me tt our chem results was up on litespeed.Only paper 1 results as up on net...i got 18/40...third lowest in class...i knew it...an O or F is guaranteed...of course chewy and yu zhu scored much higher...but chewy muz be disappointed with her results too.When i saw the answer schemes for paper two and three...i estimated 33/??? for paper 3.

I called yu zhu to inform her about it.We chatted thru'out the nite from 11.19.19pm to exactly 3.00am when her hp batt went flat...such a coincident...at 3am sharp.For 3hr and 41 mins.It has been a long time ever since i chatted with my frens for hours...ever since sec 3...and even more surprisingly with yu zhu.The line got dc a few times whenever i switched from the phone base to the cordless phone and vice versa.The phone was buzzing away...i was not near the fan..i din noe why?it was terribly hot...and i couldn't get near the fan for it could make the buzzing worse.We chatted almost about everything..from the results...to mr and mrs tay... to mr loke...her sis blogs and sleeping behaviours...our family members...the royal family members...sam's bday prez...IMF...zoos and chewy...jun yang and foo...our frenz and teachers....silblings age gaps etcetera...dats all abt it as far as i could rmb.

ps.yu zhu..thanx for accompanying me thru'out the nite...at least i could go to bed w/o having to tink abt the chem results...cuz i was exhausted..hehe.

sat is gg to be samantha's b'day..royal family members and yu rong may be celebrating over lunch tml at either j8,bugis or orchard in the afternoon.Sam wanted to treat us to swensens earthquake and take neoprints...will put them up after that.Happy 18th b'day samantha.I will be buying jy's album on sat as well =)finally.

2006-09-20T14:20:00.000+08:00

yea...prelims over.Lemme tok abt the phys paper first.paper 1...i learnt my lesson and skipped whatever qn i din noe how to do so..but after the paper...i knew i had fallen into many traps set up by the cunning teachers.esp the op amp qn...i tried the first threee options and the third one satisfy but never wld i have tot that the voltage wouldn't match...oh well..and the last qn...i wrote D at first but i changed it...untill i confirm with Zhi Yuan again..i knew another two marks gone.Paper two..i spent the first 5 mins pondering over wat disadvantages could the potientiometer has...i noe i rmb readin that but i've completely forgotten..try to tink of some common sense ans but brain was not working.look at the second qn..i went huh???no values given and want me to prove tt z=0.4??later gt to noe from chewy tt we have to use the kinematics eqn...wtf...i wouldn't have tot of tt even if i have the notes with me den.so the rest of the paper was struggling to finish it...i tink i skipped two parts of the e field qn w/o even looking at the qns so tt i will have time to do the data analysis qn.but when i looked at it...i knew once again..i was finished!!!Worse still..i knew they wanted two values from the second graph and i so stupidlly went to cut the zero point...but i had no time to change and i cont with watever i was left with.

Finally can go home to take a rest.As usu...we walked to the interchange.but this time chewy and i din ran to catch the bus for we can now afford to wait for the next one to arrive.Suggested gg to cp for a walk and so we ended up walking for hours.Was inside the newly opened Watsons...very big with lotsa new goodies...hehe...we happen to walk pass the health corner and we chance upon the pregnancy kit...it cost 49 dollars..omg...it was so ex...some more not accurate de.Next was the popular and i finished flipping thru the whole book.jun yangs album was not on the chart anymore...sobz sobz.but outside sembawang store had a big big poster of jun yang..love it man.Went to eat laksa...with lotsa tau pok inside chewy's bowl and lotsa hums inside mine...we exchanged our ingredients...hehe..next tym we shall have mee siam with no hums instead.

I din sleep when i gt home but went online instead.I can tell you...this could be the happiest moment of my life such that i'm willing to forgo everything just to read this message.

From:
Ande
Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("9/16/2006 5:27 AM","timetag1","SG");
Saturday, 16 September, 2006 8:27 PM
Subject:
hello
Message:
Hi Yiyuan, what a surprise! nice of you to remember me after 5 yrs?How have you been? I still remember you as the little girl in sec 1 back in 2001 and now you are in JC already. Time really flies.. I seldom use friendster, you can mail me @ xxxxx@singnet.com.sg or my mobile xxxxxxxx. Take care alright!RegardsAnde

Did u all see that...although i took the initiative to add him first...he send me a msg thru friendster acct first.I had wanted to send him a msg today as i've told chewy ytd but now..he have already done it first.No one is able to understand how i feel at this point of time...i knew i was overjoyed but at the same time i was afraid...i just had this feeling somehow tt i will not be able to connect with him again.I'm scared.And while i'm typing this now...my eyes is filled with tears once again.

I saw tt he oso added Wan Ting recently and so i sms wan ting and she told me that it was she who added him beacuse Ande thru me have oso gone to view her profile.And and they were going to meet him for dinner later today.I felt devastated almost immediately...and for once..i regret adding him for i din wan him to get into contact with them again. I was the first to get to noe Ande in peicai and introduces wan ting and gang to him...i regretted it.But nevertheless...whats not to be done have been done...the damage have been made.

I sms-ed him

me:heya..yi yuan here..Glad to see ya msg after my last paper for prelims today..hehe.Heard that u gg to meet wan ting and gang for dinner later..have fun ya![i knew i did this juz to let him noe tt i've not been invited to go]
Ande:Hey u not coming?[i knew tt he wld ask me along]
me:I dunno abt it until i asked wan ting today..yup[i was trying to show him how i was being neglected by them]
Ande:Hey it ok.Are u free later?Just come down and meet !
me:Nah...after exams vey tired le..wanna go sleep.Pai seh ar..first time u ask me out den i dun wan go..u all next time got meet den inform me again ba :)
Ande:Alright.But u cannot turn me down e next time alright!
me:Yea...provided it's not near the A levels ya...Haha..it's a promise!

So we ended our "conversation" here.My birthday wish for the past four years was to meet up with him one more time..and now i finally have the chance and i actually rejected it..am i crazy?Do you all really tink tt it was because i was tired and want to go sleep and tts y i refused to go?In fact,i was frightened....i dunno what to say when i see him again.And i noe i din wan to meet him in this present state of mine...i knew the other three gals would have doll themselves up and dress up with skirts and nice blouses tgt with make- up...but i dun have skirts...neither do i noe how to put on make-up.One word...its inferiority.I hope he can sms me first the next tym round.

20/09/06

I was online the entire day....i din want to touch my notes for the time being...not even re arrange them.I got into friendster to add some more frens.Was chatting with wan ting in msn the whole day till 2 plus.She sent me the potos that they took with ande ytd and we exchanged potos of AJ(mr foo) and jun yang.I tried to ask her everything abt ytd w/o sounding too obvious.She told me Ande was getting married next year,tgt with her gf whom they have par tuo for threee years(i knew this would come) and he's now an asst manager.. into banking.Ande wanted to meet them at Serangoon Gardens and he drove them home.Cafe cartel.She oso told me tt he asked about me...haha...how i wish i could ans them myself. Him.....his car(looks similar to my dads car)...the three gals.

2006-09-18T13:36:00.000+08:00

15/09/06

Here i am again...and i'm gg to write a continuation of what happened last fri 150916.After blogging,i went to log on into friendster which i've haven been doin so for ages...I decided to search for my long lost frens account using the search engines.Found some but not all...but i added one very important person..guess who??Ande NG...needless to mention actually but i insist on doin so in case i forgot myself...his account was juz a pic of a car and a X-ray mind...and i was not sure if tt the acct was his..i looked further down and saw his one and only testi which mention sth abt their memories in ai tong pri.I recall he was frm tt sch too n so i decided to give it a try and add him anw...i will try ways and means juz to locate him down...but i dun hope much...juz hoping tt he will accept my friend request ya.

So after the whole day of blogging...i decided to start my revision later in the night.But i received one sms from yu zhu and there goes my mood.I callled her to ask her abt my physics paper 3 results since she said she has seen them on bird's laptop.yupps..so i gt 48 out of 110 for the entire paper.I went to have dinner with huge chilli crabs on my dining table...but all i had was a huge pincher and a bowl of rice before i lockeed my myself up in the room and started worrying again;otherwise...i wld have been the last to finish up the remaining crabs.So again...i hesitated for awhile but still i sms tay to confirm the marks and to ask him my marks for qn 4 and 6 cuz i guess the marks would have been better if i had better time management rather than doin those last two qns in 20 mins time.but darn...he din want to tell...he could have juz told me tt he din wan to tell me instead of gg round abt...still tell me to conc on the rest of the 150 marks...but u noe there's sth call reverse psychology?I planned to study physics for today but i ended up looking at the first page of the capacitance notes from 9pm to 12am before i flipped to the next page.pathetic izzen it... and there goes tonight..nothing went in.

16 n 17/9/06

i mugged for stats...shld i say tt?but bcuz i was still affected by my phys score..i only manage to cover 3/11 chapters,leaving the rest of the 8 topics for tml and the monday morning.Mon morning....i was still gg thru hypo testing notes and touched only briefly for complex.

18/09/06

Maths paper 2...another killer paper.i was glad tt i din cover much for complex as i leave the entire qn blank.i started doin the first stats qn with lots of guessing...followed by blanks...blanks and more blanks for the next few qns before i started doin the rest of the paper.the qns were so unfamiliar to me...it was tougher than the mock paper from rjc i tink.

2006-09-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

Juz finished my last chemistry paper today...out of everything so far,chem was the worse.never had i felt tt my chem would be the "scoring"subject for approaching towards eggs and more eggs.Concepts was getting unclear as i study more.

Whatever...i am prepared for the worst to come.Hit me as hard as you can so tt i will wake up.

My sis started working in Mac...perhaps the cp or hm outlet..and i got to noe abt it juz ytd as well.Maybe it may seem fun for them to work as they study cus it's an entirely new experience but never will they have guess the attitude of customers if ever something crops up.She was overjoyed when she pass the interview test ytd...but was she ever that happy when she knew she had scored a band 1 or something?Nah...everything concerning school and schoolwork was out of her "discussion" area except her gang of friends who are willing to spend the entire day toking to her on the hse phone and hp simultaneously....thru the day and night...and distracting me at the same time even with the slightest bit of when i coop myself up in the room.I am starting to feel quite useless...dare not go out to work or noe how to find a job after the O lvls;yet do not want to rely on my parents.Somewhat...although i'm in a JC and always assumed to be smarter than my sis who's in normal tech...i noe she will do beta than me in the far future..I'm not the study kind..neither am i the one who can hold odd jobs or even managerial position...so i tink i'm gg to change my mindset and concentrate on getting on the right path to becoming a tai-tai..heh.

Ohya...today's my mum's birthday.But oops...i forgot all abt it until she mention abt gg to swensens today...what a filial daughter am I.Anw..i forgotten abt my dad's one too but who cares...our family doesn't cel bdaes anymore after i was age 12.

Still have not found anyone to watch a movie with me but i'm determined to go for one myself even if there was no one to accompany me.Our class ppl i can dun even bother to ask le la...not say very close.Some day after the prelims ba...

2006-08-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

Today is the last episode of 2530 de xing fu.Really really no more distractions for me le.

Perhaps this is the last time that anyone of you should come and read what i've blog cuz i've decided to stop blogging after today untill the "A levels" is over.Maybe i will still come here and put up some notices on my progress but i tink that will not interst anyone of you le la...saves u time from visiting a dead blog as well.

But sometimes if you have nothing to do...can come tag me and give me some encouraging words...so as to ensure that i can survive thru the prelims and A levels exams...i would really appreciate that alot.

2006-08-17T13:25:00.000+08:00

22/07/06

Went to orchard after tuition to get some things done asap..but it seems that it had been a wasted trip. The trip to Orchard by train was arr..one word,frustrating.I was pacing around for abt 5 mins before I got to see the train arriving.Out of courteousy, I allowed others to get out of the train first before I make my way in. Usually I will do so and use my squeezing tactic to get into the train after that and have always succeeded until today. I couldn’t get into the train on time…I realize that one shouldn’t be overly bother about being courteous to others which the govt have been trying to promote and instill in us…otherwise we will loogee de…also especially when we are out of patience and rushing.

Saw Dasmond Koh and Quan Yi Fong having a pre-recording session on “Let’s shoot 2” at cp while going to grab my brunch and dinner combined at mac. He’s gg to be my new target…I assure u..hahaz.

23/07/06

Listening to radio1003 and got two songs rank no.13 and 14 by Jun Yang leh…damn cool la….see how popular his songs were among us,except for that chewy who die die oso dun wan download his songs…mayb she did?just that she didn’t want to let me noe bout’ it

24/07/06

Since when did i become Mr Tay's de "xiao mei mei"?
Yup...He's back from re-service. What really surprised me was that he actually wrote me a letter(written in Chinese and den English and abit of jap) in response to my blog entries.The most recent ones.He could have actually email me or maybe talked to me personally ma…to avoid all the rumours that I’ve been hearing all ard me…especially by the royal family…asking me why he only write letter to you but not to us?I tried to explain but it was useless.You all must understand that it’s only because I’ve wrote what I felt in my blog and you all din…as simple as that lor.But ironically…I’m not really surprised as I know he’s always going to have some big actions after certain stuffs that I’ve written or shifu have written on our blog. Last tym got one “Cheng Xiong” and now Mr Tay. But as can be seen from one of my fren’s blog, he actually quoted out the first sentence of the letter and didn’t explain the rest…anyone else who didn’t know the rest of the content would have misinterpreted the msg that mr tay is trying to bring across.Okie….i must admit that I was not the first one who read or even opened the letter…it was by one of my classmates,in fact I was the fifth one.It was just passed down from a person’s hand to the next.Half of my classmates have read the letter and almost ¾ knew about it..including mrs tay because she saw us reading it.Actually after reading le got abit touched lor…cuz rarely got teachers that care de ma.But at the same time…I read le oso very confused and upset…it reminded me of my results again…3 months is not a very long period…if you include the prelims into it I went home and read the letter many times until I’ve almost memorize it le lor…still Im having mixed feelings now.And because of it…I’m having a terrible headache now.

NEL broke down and affected mainly four stations. Directly,it had brought inconvenience to my mum who have had a hair dyed according to her wish at Chinatown and have to return by bus-the long journey instead of the train.The breakdown affected many ppl and that’s why the issue about Singapore’s transportation system came about almost instantaneously. Haha…that’s only my view.

25/07/06

Saw a sec sch girl helping a blind man up the bus in the morning. I’m touched by her actions. I’ve been feeling weak all over since early in the morning. Walked slower than usual and didn’t have the energy to even sing the national anthem. Perhaps it was illness bein carried forward from ytd. Still thinking about the letter.it’s content.

Attended Maths remedial for the first time after the mid-years and the practice paper was tough for me…attendance is compulsory…tot I could escape after the first one.News report…someone had head-on collision with one of the poles outside NY today and going to have a bruise on her face tml.I guess only the three of us know who I am toking bout’…lolx.

27/07/06

Attended Chem lecture and went home.It was raining cats and dogs…phew…luckily the rain stopped after I board the bus.Saw Melissa at the bus stop and we took bus 83 home.I saw a not man-not woman person…with a guy’s feature and a woman’s figure.I told mel and we discussed. Conclusion, he/she is a ren yao…but one of the most perfect one…such as I couldn’t tell.

29/07/06

Went for GP tuition as per normal. Halfway during the lessons when we were suppose to do an outline,mr tong walked over and place his hp in front of me. I looked at him den took his phone and saw the msg that he typed on the phone Cannot rmb exactly the words as I just scanned thru it once,plus my mind was again in a confused state.It was something about him needing to see me more after the prelims cuz he said in his last sentence,”Sorry,but I just want to help”. I tink I gave him a helpless look and almost instantly,I “liu le liang hang de lei”as soon as he walked off. But I oso dried up my tears before he could see it.I ‘m not sure at that moment if I cried because I was touched for I know teachers are still caring for me despite my grades or that i feel that I’m really in a very bad state such that consoling words were needed.

30/07/06

Although one song was out of the ranking in radio 1003,the other song got to the top six…haha. improving. It can get better.

31/07/06

Sms-ed Mr tay to ask him for consultation…dunno if he really could help me much but at least I tried. Should I thank him for giving me consultation despite being him busy preparing for his FIRST lecture in nyjc on op-amp?The biggest LT in ny,LT4.His lecture I would say was not a very “tao ren xi huan de lor”.We all know how he is like while having tutorials or even after tutorials.Some more still say he got put wrong ans in the slides or notes. But he seems nervous though.

Finally ate Mix in a bowl after hearing about the kuroach(cockroach) incident.

A very funny thing happened today.I had actually wanted to call out for chewy to look at her idol Sashimi.But instead…I called out Sashimi..luckily she didn’t turn back and continued packing her bag.

05/08/06

Went to take the GP practice paper in lt1 today. Actually there’s quite a no.of ppl whom I didn’t expect were also into this program.After doin paper 1 and the teachers tell us no need to pass up…waste my effort la.But I really couldn’t choose a qn that I was confident in doin.damn sucky feeling.Headed for bugis after that for tuition.Stopped by two people who wanted me to do a survey on religion stuffs.The girl who approached was one of the graduate also from ny and also in one of the S6 classes. Handed up the essay to mr tong to ask him help me mark and grade my paper.

06/08/06

Jun Yang’s de “nan dao” now in the third position.See…I told u there will be an improvement.He will most probably have his ”gai ban” de album soon ba.

07/08/06

Attended the First Impression talk given by professional speakers.One of them was from School Of Thought…the lady who owns the naughty hamster over at bugis.We were supposed to dress up with the theme business wear in mind but royal family din la.Only Charlotte,mich,chong jin aka ah ma,xuan sheng and Zzz aka zhi liang ,tiongli,merrick and marcus wore.Not too bad of the choice and colour combi of clothes for most of them.Marcus’s one was quite outstanding..Xuan Sheng looked the smartest as he has got the built but juz slightly short…I like tiongli’s one too.

Mrs Tay called me at 5.06.46pm while I’m still on bus 105 after the physics remedial. She told me that it was compulsory to come for tml’s national day cel and asked me to inform chewy and Yu Zhu also.This is the first time she call me leh….i wonder why she called me instead of queen who seem to be more responsible..well…I duno.

08/08/06

The fund raising thing today is the worst that I’ve ever experienced.Having to fight among not only J1 and J2’s nyjcians but also with the ppl in blue shirt situated every location all over kovan.I have seen these blue shirts ppl since early in the morning with tins in every single one of them when I was on my way to school.I still see them at cp even at 6pm.Wondered where they were from.National day gift:cup noodles…weird izzen it?But I like it….it would have cost $0.85 per cup outside and now I’m taking 5 cups (worth $4.25) for free..wahaha.but today is oso the first time that I heard about the Styrofoam melting to becoming wax…and I’ve been consuming small amounts of wax each cup for the past years unknowingly.

Consultation with Mr Tay on nuclear physics and capacitance from the cel ended to abt 5 plus.I duuno how to say la…but he makes us feel very stress during the nuclear hours. He just made me feel very stress instead of relief that I actually get to seek help from him.Maybe consultation izzen just for me. Luckily I never tried looking for him w/o any frens ard…otherwise I would have burst. Both of us could see that he was quite “pek chek” with us already la…that’s why we were still considering whether to ask him on capacitance not(the re-drawing of circuit since he have gone thru in class before);otherwise he would be more”pek chek”But I could understand…if I noe that much and when I explain to someone who knows little or ask stupid qn….i would also be very grrrr de lor.The look on his face whenever I say something really make me wanna shut up for just this once and not clearing my doubts at all.Perhaps I’m slow and dun grab concepts that fast…but whoever teach me must have patient with me…I dun tink I now know a lot more about nuclear phys than I know before the consultation cuz…I duno…sth is wrg.But I’m glad I asked him abt the re-drawing of circuits.And I learnt something else today,i.e never to trust teachers..serious.

Saw Derek…a friend of mine when I was having tuition at Mrs Chin’s hse last time while I was still in primary school.I asked him if he could rmb me and he seem to be able to recall and we had a short conversation and exchanged hp nos. But when I mention elton’s name,he was like huh???He drop school le lor and is in army now…planning to work only after 2 years…here wishing him all the best.

Today’s justin’s b’day and he still came for the national day cel.Didn’t get to wish him happy burfday last year cuz of some reasons but I did this year.Again,I shall wish him happy 18th birthday here.

Jun yang’s “gai ban” unicorn album released today!

09/08/06

Happy 41st birthday Singapore.Was mugging at home for the maths lecture test coming up next tues.I watched the parade on tv and it was boring.But I will always feel proud to be a Singaporean.

12/08/06

Arr…mr tong have not yet helped me mark my essay…Is he really that busy?Went to shop for chewy’s birthday prez at bugis after tution…having her leave by herself.I was surprised that we’ve bought what we’ve bought but still this is the first time I got something like that for a friend. The cost was lesser this year and still shared by more ppl other than 5ts1.We saw a mad man shouting at some 16 to18 years old guys over the top of his voice.Everyone was looking at him and we didn’t dare walk past him in case he shout at us too.Had only Burger king meal for the entire day.

13/08/06

I finished the second tub of Haagen dazs strawberry ice-cream today.It’s absolutely delicious…has a refreshing taste…just marvelous.Try it if you haven.Wondered if I have put on weight after eating it…but it’s made from skim milk..so I tink it should not have too much effect ba.

Jun Yang went to 1003 radio station at Thomson to promote his unicorn album as well as celebrate his birthday with some of his fans. He gave out cds, necklace and his posters to some of them leh…so envy.”nan dao” is now ranked second…haha.”Love” rank no. 17.

14/08/06

Physics lecture test on nuclear physics,radioactivity and capacitance.All that I’ve attempt to memorize didn’t come out…sure fail again le lor.

15/08/06

Den there is Maths lecture test on stats and calculus today.This test is worse den physics.The two of them siiting beside me knew how to do but I couldn’t.Stuggle,Stuggle and still Stuggling.

Got onto the weighing machine in school today…if there was no systematic error…den I have not gained any weight…still at ~45kg….but I’ve not been exercising since there was no pe in school.

I told yu and chewy about the dream that I made the other day.It was about me attending mr ho’s lecture and we were watching some video clips.Halfway thru,I heard someone calling me to try some food….mr ho saw me but didn’t say anything but came a mr tay and he lectured me and told me to pass him a parent’s letter tml.I tink I was afraid then.Moral of the story…dat is never listen to mp3 during econs lecture…or whatever tutorials and get caught.Ever since the last time I got caught by mr honey….i’ve been trying to avoid him whenever I see him….esp when I’ve forgotten to bring my tie for assembly on weds.

16/08/06

It’s Wan ting’s birthday today…sammy handed her the prez that we’ve all chipped in..Wondered if she knew we did.Anyway…happy 18th birthday to her.Shifu and Shimu made a a very nice card for her..haha. Shifu is flirting with some other gals now…gai shi de ta.
Did my hypothesis testing tutorial till 1 plus and stopped halfway to write something for chewy till 3.30am....not gettin enuf slp.

17/08/06

今天是俊杨的二十五岁生日！我好高兴哦！今天原本打算去买他的改版专辑的，来当作给他的生日礼物。。。但因为昨天没有跟妈妈拿钱也还没问过她。。。所以现在暂时把这个念头放在一旁。他或许阵在跟某某人庆祝生日。我好嫉妒喔。但我希望他能知道我对他的心意和关心。我就在这里祝他在事业上有更大的突破。。。能够天天健康快乐。但我有个很自私的想法，就是他能迟一点结婚。。。哈哈。。开玩笑的啦。。。只要他开心就好了。

Handed chewy her birthday prez today...i've reminded them but they've all forgotten...well...nothing more can be done.I hope she will like the prez...if not the cards written by us.Chewy went to buy 4D today...well...it's her first time...it striked us on this idea when we saw the drink stall auntie at the bus interchange again. Just for fun.Well...see if thers's a change of luck after all the unlucky things that she've met today...like getting late for school on her birthday.

Today is also tiong li's birthday.Would like to wish the three of them happy birthday here.Although there's a diiference of age gap between them...one 25 and two 18s.

Happy Birthday Jun yang!

2006-07-21T13:22:00.001+08:00

Approx~,nuclear phys and radioctivity tutorial,GP file yet to be compiled(onli for those who scored 40 and below) ,chemical thermody IV and chem eqm yet to be done and here i'm blogging.Chemistry extra remedial and lecture remedial straight for three hours today.QW's unique way of taking attendance.

难道。。。（难道你还没听到，我的心慢慢碎。。。难道很好听〕我在学校里把心情掩饰的不够好吗？为什么朋友还是察觉到了呢？无论如何，我还是想快点振作起来。。不想在消沉下去了。

Bought TEENS today.Cover page is Jun Yang leh.This helped me to brighten up my day for a few hours.My jun yang in white.lolx.

2006-07-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

Bus 22 was almost fully packed today and somemore arrived later than usual.I saw my fellow schoolmates running towards the parade square and i began to run too.But i tot i still have time.Luckily i reached the parade square on time but not standing tgt with my class.No warning for me still.haha.

今天也不知何故，心情真的差透了。这几天以来也不时的哭了起来，一想起考试的成绩就哭，设想自己以后该往哪个方向前进但却一点概念或头绪都没有时就哭，想反省到底哪里出了状况时又哭。我想不通到底自己为何在哭，都是自己平时不好好努力读书。。。现在又能怪谁呢？现状况令我最担心的就是我的英文了，要是在这次的“Ａ”水准成绩不理想的话，其他再好的成绩也进不了大学。虽说如果能考到三个特优就没有问题了，但我也知道这是不可能达成的，因为自己有自知自明也因此也懂得不能好高务远。这次我也真的受到了很大的打击。一向来拿到成绩后。。过了几天也就会想开就会没事了，但这次不一样。连我自己都搞不清楚了，那身边的人又怎会体会呢？这几天来根本就没有心情专心的做好一件事。。。老是发呆神游。只能把不开心的转移精神到看电视节目上。也没有集中力好好地读完笔记，做好功课。我一天摆脱不了学业上所带给我的种种压力，就不会有快乐的我。

2006-07-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

There goes my lunch for today.We spent 1 1/2hr printing just three sets of mcqs papers.Printer got problem,inverted pages,and slow printing process.hear the sound Ti ti ti ti and here comes the lab tech.Paper jam.He said the printer had np in the past untill we came.Back to the com lab after sch,wanting to finish the printing but screen shows Cannot Start Print.diao!Saw mr tong and he drove past us w/o even waving goodbye.

On my bus journey home,i saw a malay guy B in pgss uniform tgt with another malay guy who seem to be older than him.i am quite certain that B was carrying a baby in his arm.Assuming the baby is his child,den where have all the moral values gone to?Are we actually attending civics and moral education for fun?watching abortion movie clips in school for the sake of watching?den the govt should have to revise the education system and not let us attend cme lessons,instead should spend more time concentrating on core syllabus.Should our the govt take the responsibility?LOLx

Short mv on JY's shown today.

2006-07-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

GP tution today and we're supposed to bring our GP papers for Mr tong to look thru and go thru.He took a few scripts, photocopy them for us and went thru for the entire tution.Btw,i tink i saw Andy,one of my seniors from peicai.long time nv see him le.Today Jun Yang is also holding a mini concert at DXO.Can anyone of you tell me wat DXO represents and where exactly is this place?Somewhere near the esplanade?Or durians with XO flavor?

2006-07-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

Got back my phys paper 2 and GP paper today which means the completion of the collecting of scripts and me myself analysing my own performance for this mid year exams. Should I have known what my results will show..i will not have studied so hard.So now i'm really starting to worry...again this is the first time i'm doing so.My performance up to now after going thru one and a half year of JC education is not even better than when i first took my mid-year exams in year one,what more to mention about going to university.It just seems that my future will be a bleak one.
Starting from the worse:
GP-32/100(F9)-bottom three of my class-bottom 20% of the whole cohort
Physics-51(D)-ranking:176/450
Chemistry-51(D)-ranking:not included but i suppose i'm in the 196th position..jus below where the ranking system stops at
Maths-57(C)-still have to attend remedial

Haha...worse come to worse.i just stone.
The class photos are ready for collections today.Had one of the photos to be passed ard for autographs.O.o.nicee.

2006-07-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

Back to formal lessons after the “long” break. Mr Tay went for NS re-service le…returning only two weeks later. Meanwhile, I’m going to slack as much as I can before he returns. Mr law?Mr lau? came over to take over his lessons. He returned us our physics paper 1 and 3,wrote down the percentage for each paper and that’s it.the rest of the period for him to walk ard and for us to ask him qns. Din understand his explanation though.

Got back my phys paper 1 and 3,chem and maths papers today.

2006-07-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Anyway...anyone free or willing to accompany me watch a movie.I just wanna watch a NC16 show before i turn 18 this year.Or recommend me if there is any NC16 movies coming up.Tagg me or gimme a call ya!

2006-07-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

Have been mugging at home since the start of the June holidays jus to prepare for the mid year exams.Since JC1..june holidays are no longer for us.Back to school for lectures for abt one week and facing for corners in a room every single day after that.Notes have been crumpled and lots of paper being crushed by me.Hmm..although it's a boring life..i'm going to update my june holidays entries all the same...at one go.

28/05/06
I saw Jun Yang's mv on one of the songs in his first and latest album,"沙沙的谁" in the album "独角兽" at 6.55pm on channel U.I wouldn't say that the mv was nice cuz it was a boring one.And the song which i heard for the first time doesn't really impress me with his singing ability.But but but i like him still...although i din really quite like his new hairstyle.And i'm so happy when i saw the female lead..haha..because she was...

30/05/06
Attended GP tution from 4-6pm..really tired

31/05/06
I was watching tv halfway when pris sms me and asked if i was gg to the band concert..But it was funny den.Pris and pam was the middle -middle person for the day..haha.Pris called me when didn't reply her sms for a few minutes.She said that she was toking to Zhi Liang on msn and zhi liang said that he wouldn't mind accompanying me to the band concert.So i told her okie lor.But it was like i was asking her qns and she told pam to type to reply Zhi liang and this process was going on back and forth this way for quite some time. converstion-conversation-reply-reply-conversation..haha...SHM involved.

01/06/06
Poor Mr Yee...three classes of his was suppose to attend his GP remedial and it turn out to be less than 30 ppl altogether.He rewarded us with candies for attending..lolx.Paid zhi liang the money for the concert today...it was suppose to be 10 dollars but got a discount from his fren instead.

02/06/06
There was two lectures gg on in the morning and in addition physics tutorial from 230 to 330pm.A few of us stayed back after the lesson to continue with the rest of the qns.No doubt..i got lectured by him again today but i really dunno how to do ma..not that i didn't try and also the Bohr's deduction on the dual character thingy...really dun understand wat...i stoopid can.As if i really want to score CCD like dat...just to spite him of course...who doesn't want to enter the uni after entering JC.Affected my mood for the rest of my day.

I will mark today as another important day in my calender again.Because...
This is the first time i go out with a guy alone..haha..but not as in wat u all will tink la.So some comments abt Zhi liang's house and some things i saw..
-I like his bed the most.It's a queen size bed and so soft...wahahaha.but i do wonder why he need so many pillows for.
-His house is so dark...have to open my eyes real big when i roam ard
-I dun like sitting on carpet..suppose to be made made up of fur but not flurry
-I saw his brother and his dad as well..i've seen his whole family at last
-the light i his room was not covered with a cover cuz he say liddat brighter
-Good way of keeping his money...two cashbox at one go
-Mee Goreng tasted different from my maid cook de
-No aircons but with two refrigerators and two big fish tanks and two coms...liddat can save money meh?
-His room is neat but definitely not neater than mine...wonder if he tidys it up himself

Okie ya...so he asked me what colour clothes i was wearing....i told him white and he say muz wear different from me.But in the end still settle for white polo tee ma...anw...i still believe that guys dressed in white look the smartest.But the clothes inside his wardrobe was similar to Shawns...rainbow colour. And arr...his hse water supply is so low...have to wait 7secs just to get a handful of water..He's so particular abt his shoe...took so long to settle for one.

We finally get to head to the mrt station.So we manage to reach vch on time..so many nyjcians were oredi waiting outside.We went up and he wanted to tok to mr quek and mr foo lor.We sat somewhere behind at seat no.10 and 11..unlike last time when i went with rui yun.So thru'out the concert,my head was slanted to the left side cuz the couple in front of me was blocking my view.And him...i really feel guilty towards him lor.He didn't know how to appreciate the music(me either but still i wanted to go) and was having a headache and i was like still so bad and ask him to accompany me...shld have let him give up his tix to jeremy or aaron instead.But he kept saying nvm cuz in the first place,he was the one who was willing to accompany me there.I rmb-ed chatting with him abt the topic on frens again...but i noe his words didn't affect me much for i was not close to him.

The concert ended 9 plus ba and i tot we could follow the crowd to get to the mrt station.but we ended up "lost" and went for sight-seeing instead.Most memorable part of the day..i stepped into the brigde along the Singapore River at 9.51pm and crossed it.We took 2mins to cross it.I've always wanted to cross this bridge..for some unknown reasons.We also get to stroll along the river to head to the esplanade.Many years since i've last get to stroll outside at this time with my friends.The first time that i'm up close looking at the fullerton hotel(the venue where our dinner and dance night will be held)...but i noe i will nv get the chance to enter it since we've decided not to go for the d&d.Too bad that i did not have my camera with me...neither do i have a camera phone.Outside the esplanade was some performance by a person...i duno wat this person was known as..but i like his performance.Wanted to take a bus but zl didn't want to so we ended up walking in marina square while looking for way to the mrt station.Really changed alot over there.Actually..i feel safe with zl ard cuz he seem to always appear so calm and smart and i noe i wouldn't get lost with him ard lor.Oh ya...we walked past the HMV and ta-da i found it..this is the first time i get to see jun yang's album.But i didn't want to buy it first.

So again we headed to the mrt station and i reached home at abt 11.30pm.Thanx zhiliang and jun yang for brightening up my day.

04/06/06
Decided to re-start my physics revision since i noe nothing went inside my head for the past few days of revision

08/06/06
Chewy sms-ed me and told me to listen to umf1003 cuz jy was on air.At first i tot it was jie yan cus maybe mr howard ng invited him or sth liddat.But i realized it was jun yang that she was tokin abt.Jun yang's voice really sound different today and he introduced his new album to the listeners.Some things that i've noted down in case i forget
He
-learnt the piano at the age of 4
-learn the guitar when he was in sec 2/3
-attended music lessons and sang his own song during his first music lesson
-felt nervous,scared,dunno wat to do and no confidence when he went on stage for the first time
-was performing at j8 with his team j5
-part of the SAF band (same as mr foo)and played the french horn
-likes to play DOTA
- felt more experienced when shooting his mv after acting in dream chaser
-afraid when recording at night cuz V.cam cannot be used once it enter the studio

It took about one hour altogether and i stopped my revision after that...too excited to carry on

09/06/06
Sms mr tay for the first time since he didn't reply to yu's msg ytd night.But he too didn't reply to my sms.Wondered why he carried a hp for.Haha...end of my physics revision.Today is the start of World Cup 2006..anw it doesn't interest me at all.

10/06/06
Rainy days these past few days...i hate rainy days cuz i cannot study in this weather.
Attended GP tution again and mr tong mention abt ocd(obsessive compulsion disorder).I wonder if i was there to listen to his real life stories happening ard him to become a better person morally or to learn abt GP.Wondering too if i have a compulsion disorder for "neatness"

11/06/06
I set my alarm exactly at 11.30am so that i can wake up on time to start my revision.But who noes if i've offended mr tay or wat...he called me at 11.26.32am...err..okiie...so he was in Malaysia enjoying his holidays while i'm mugging in Singapore.So we arranged to meet up with him next wed for consultation.

My house refrigerator died on us after 5 years...sigh

13/06/06
I dreamt abt someone liking me and it was a sweet dream before my alarm woke me up from slumberland again.So it's better to be chased in a dream rather than in real life.

The repairman came to check on my refrigerator and said that this one spoil...that one have to be changed and the company will send someone to repair only two days later.All my fav food have gone bad le la.

Jun Yang appeared on both channel 8 and channel U.Channel U with Dasmond Koh and some campus superstars to introduce some food and interview on channel 8.

14/06/06
Dun wan to tok too much abt wat happened today..just consultation for 4 hours long

15/06/06
Fridge was revived and the same repairman came and said that as long he's there...everything will be alright.He was kind enuf to help us check on the air con and cooking stove as well.

17/06/06
Mr tong spilt us up into two groups..into the quiet ones and the "noisy" ones.Lets see how this combination will help in the future.

The small,naughty kids were so noisy such that we have to move down to the lower deck.And they followed us down..i have nothing to say.

I went to buy vitamins C today.Decided to turn to it for help instead of eating panadols like wat i did during last years promos.

20/06/06
Mr tommy Lee appeared on the tv program call Y generation i tink and he looks so god damn nervous.Saw S3D having pe lessons with him and shawn look so funi...wahaha.Also saw the dragonboaters.His chi name is li wei qin..sounds like a girls name...dun u tink so?

22/06/06
Metal breakdown today...i tink i needed consultation just for today but there was none.Dun see me always happy-go-lucky but there's always a hidden reason behind every move.

23/06/06
Start of mid-year exams.

Daddy bought a new refrigerator ever since the repaired refrigerator died on us two days later...i can have my ice-cream finally.

27/06/06
Pathetic..the fan since we used in when we were in Serangoon cracked upon the touch of my sis hand.So many things have spoilt recently..is this a bad omen?i hope it izzen.

27/06/06
Have been listening to umf 1003 for the 2530 广播剧every weekday at 12pm or 10pm.Hope the ending turns out well.

28/06/06
Lousy new fan arrived today

30/06/06
Received post card from rui yun today.But i noe what is was all abt already sice she sms me earlier in the afternoon

01/07/06
Sob Sob..i could'nt go for jun yang's autogragh session today.Otherwise i would have bought his album and go for it today.But because of mid-year...i dropped this idea.

03/07/06
Jun Yang appeared on top fun today.I started watching from 8.10pm and he performed only at 9.45pm.It just so happen that i always manage to chance upon his appearance on tv.

06/07/06
Last day of mid-year exams...finally.But how come i dun feel happy at all..and oso not used to sleeping early.Actually eveytime i hand my scripts over...i noe all the time spent for the entire month have been wasted.i shan't comment on the difficulties of the papers..u will noe when i post my results up here a week later.I actually forgot to take up ez link card along when i pack my bag...realize that i didn't have it with me after a long wait at the bus stop with yu zhu.So we went back to school to look for it...luckily it was still there...phew.See...dat show signs of fatigue and stress.

08/07/06
I dunno why...but i'm just stressed over certain things..many things still need to be sorted out..These few days of breaks was worse than going to sch but still i do not want to see my results.

2006-07-07T13:11:00.000+08:00

Every year of this day marks an important date in my calender.It is the day when i last saw Ande in school.It has been exactly five years since he left.Thats why i chose to blog only today after so long,and not on the day when i finished my exams.

I too,chose to buy another keyboard to replace the dying one today so that i will not have the urge to blog before today.Chose to cut my hair today so that i can rmb when i last cut my hair the next time.But the hairdresser shop was not open and i decided to settle down for another nearby shop and had my favourite lor mee at my favourite coffeeshop in Serangoon.

Btw...we still have to go back to sch today just for the school sports carnival...its damn sian la...sitting at the grandstand for 2hours plus...and the dragon which was suppose to represent the dragon house was like a worm...as wat chewy had said.We were the overall hse champion i tink.Mr quek was also part of dragon hse..haha.The teachers 8*100m race was the highlights of the day.Mr tay ran pretty fast...dun see him size small small ar.But Mr foo didn't do too badly either.I got cheer for both of them okie.

Today,the seize clubbers...izit wat they call themselves?..are holding a b'day celebration for liyi.I noe my presence at some of their outings are pretty extra since i barely noe anyone there and i guess i'm the only one not from bowen sec. I realized that since the sentosa trip!So i decided not to go to today's celebration as well as the future outings cuz i noe i have always went out with them w/o being invited.Thick skinned me. And perhaps both of us there will feel awkward and grabbing for chewy's attention...lolx.

Anyway...still wanna wish Liyi Happy 18th birthday and all the best ba...dun be too stress up also.=)

2006-05-28T02:51:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry that i've disappointed you but i dun want to drag it further.In any case if you hadn't understood what i wrote in the previous time...let me repeat,i do not want to become friends with you anymore.I noe i'm cruel and selfish by sayin this sentence but i really cannot bring myself to become friends with you any longer. So...u can dun bother abt tokin to me even after u have cooled down or watever.I believe tt one day i will have to change my mindset but tt will only happen when maybe after i've gained maturity,being enlightened like what you've gone thru or have that person influential enough to make me do so.I'm just like the past AJ aka jun yang in the show where he said that,"我的字典里没有道歉这两个字".He started to change only when he realize that he's gg to lose his loved ones.Although it's just a show,i tink it certainly describes me in reality.I dun care even if you tell it to xinyu,yiwen, liyi or anyone else and you may have your circle of friends supporting you and tink that you are right and i'm wrong ,den just be it.cuz i noe its my fault it the first place...i willing to admit but not apologize.

2006-05-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

21st May

I paid my tutor the tution fees today.I tink I really need to go back to basic mathematics calculation.I cannot even compute simple stuffs as simple as 240/4 *3=180.I gave her $160 instead and made a fool out myself again.

22nd May

Sashimi took the train to school today. Still, I find her an eyesore. She doesn’t need to act because she’s like that in the first place

23nd May

Waited for Shawn to be dismissed before we-chewy,shawn,wee beng and me went all the way to Far East to buy Jie Yan’s b’dae prez. Told them to take bus no. 105 because I wanted to tap my card.Been very enthu in tappin in and out my ez link for the sake of the i-pod nano as advertised on the bus. Not that I want it very much…it just to try out the system and my luck. Strong opponents like chewy...haha. ok, back to main topic.Yup…so we went straight to the shop-Simple Toys which sells almost all kinds of models and figurines except wb’s favourite Gundam models. So the Darth Maul(sth which I’ve been wondering how to spell until I checked the receipt) model was sold out except the one left displayed outside.We were hesitating whether to get to get it for him before we decided to racky other places first. So we walked to Isetan there and looked for it…no doubt a wasted trip. So we went back to the same place and decided to purchase the $99.90 to be exact Darth Maul unleashed version. Anyway…it was up to the guys to decide. The only problem was that there wasn’t any box accompanying the toy for it was a loose one and diff to transport then. But we told the in charge to help us put into a sort of a discarded box. We placed order on it and made our payment first before coming back for it later for we decided that it was dangerous to transport it in the crowded street along Orchard. Funny thing was this.When Shawn was checking for flaws…he noticed that the model’s light saber was bent and so he asked the employee there. But he replied saying that maybe it was the design and Shawn was puzzled when he knew it was not, being a Star Wars fan. We knew the fact only when the in charge told us that it is natural because of the weight of the whole model itself (I was wondering if mr tay would noe this if he was there).So he told us to place it into hot water to make it expand and become straight. His face lited up only Shawn flashes his card.Shawn and Beng wanted to watch movie but we didn’t want to and so we went to Lido again to have our kfc as our dinner while Shawn and beng purchase the movie tix for themselves-izzen it abit weird to have 2 guys watching “cartoon” tgt? Four of us had the superstar meal-Zinger but too bad junyang wasn’t ard.So while they do their hw…we went tO collect the model and I carried it with caution.So…I was walking back and and forth along the same street and in and out of the two malls. Shopped for a while more before we had to go…chewy left a “Da Vinci Code” for wb to decode….only he didn’t realize which “brazil” she was referin to.
Was exhausted when I reached home abt 8pm…showered and forced myself to finish reading the binomial distribution(bdtbt) notes.I knew I couldn’t take it anymore at 10pm and went to take a short nap..noticed tt I mentioned a short one….even I was surprised that I could actually wake up and even continue to finish the tutorial till 2am.Perhaps I’m really scared of mr lokey.

I’m really surprised that young ppl actually bahave this way.Hate this.

24th May

I saw Mrs Tan Tiong Meng(mrs TTM) when she entered LT4 today. She was my pri 6 form teacher.I immediately recognized her for like me she hadn’t change a lot. Recalling…I tink me and jing ping aka jocelin now was sort of her slave and keeping the whiteboard marker for her…but I tink it was worth it because this wld mean that she trusted us.

Had interact meeting which I tot would end late but it was just a short debrief by the new pres of interact club before we can leave.i was really bo liao den to change up to 5 buses(53,22,156,43,83) just to tap my card. Ended up reaching home 1 hour later than I shld.

Today was my LAST tutorial lesson with Mr foo before Mrs Judy Tan comes back from her maternity leave. He sort of say it till like he can’t wait to get rid of our class since he have been neglecting his own class.My classmates tink tt I am or will be upset but actually I just feel neutral for he’s ultimately not the guy that I like…u all shld noe who.but I tink I will just miss him as much though I still will get to see him in sch

25th May

Mr Tay was abit cranky and not right these past few days. Ok..not that I’m the only one who noticed it…whole of royal family members noticed it too and we’ve been discussing abt it. Conclusions made were that he has been in the extreme positions. He can be very crappy and havin fun with you at one time and can be damn serious at the other time. Not as if he was as serious as today durin lessons time in the past. So..i guess it was me and Charlotte who was offended now.In addtion,we find that he was always trying to attract attention for no reasons…dat I can accept but the thing now is tt he’s always picking on me. Always suaning me and goes round the bush to shoot me back. Guess tt it’s his “PMS” acting outta control now…haha. Almost all of his students experienced the same thing as well. Well,I dun care if he’s reading this now for he mentioned before that he will not mention anything in sch.My frens had advise me to “dao” him…for they have tried it out themselves…it was successful…dao him a few weeks and he wud not bother u anymore. My strategy shall be this but it just seems to be tt I cannot help but argue back for what he have said.

On a lighter note now…today is the last episode of dream chaser aka 梦拼图.I wud comment that it wasn’t a very nice ending. And although similarly as last week’s episode…I cried when I saw jun yang aka AJ “crying”, it just wasn’t the same kind of emotion anymore. While I was studying for tml’s chem spa, i still got distracted and switched on the TV durin the last 15minutes of the repeat at 12.30pm.So it sort of took me a little more time to recap what I’ve juz memorized. Studied till 2.30am at the end.

Queen is staying overnight in school today to sort of help out with the editing.Cool.

26th May

Today is my last Chemistry SPA in school. Finally..i’m free…out of the SPA crutches. It hasn’t been a gd experience for most of the time when I was taking the exam. Today’s spa was similar to what we did during our normal practical sessions and so it was ok overall.

Queen was tired today after stayin up for almost the entire night.She was telling me tt her CNNY frens told her that Mr foo actually told one of his students that he knew tt he was a popular figure among the girls in the college and that he was known as the jun yang teacher.She also told me tt the J1s are actually crashing thermodynamics lecture just to look at him .Shouldn’t I be feel fortuned…oso dunno why I felt sad after nooe-ing this.

All J2s were made compulsory to stay back after sch today to attend the workshop..suppossedly to guide us in writing or drafting our own testimonial. I only manage to complete two and decided to hand up the third one next wed.

Today is Jie Yan’s birthday. Happy 19th birthday jie yan. I’ve been seeing him in school quite a few times but I did not dare to walk up to him and wish him a happy birthday. I’m a coward…I’ve not done what I promised myself to do in the morning.Shawn,beng and chewy have been “pestering” and encouraging me to go Jie Yan’s hse to celebrate his b’dae today…for they knew that if I choose to go…everything will be resolved.Shawn and Beng was waiting for me and chewy to finish writin our testimonials. On the bus trip to Shawn’s hse,again we argued abt issues on friendship.Nah…I was on the verge on crying again but I held back. I dun like to argue with my frens…just bcuz we have different views and opinions. First time stepped into Shawn’s hse…the first thing I saw was the batteries….dun need to be afraid even if there’s a short circuit in the hse.His dad was at home. I went to his room to have my hands on the light saber which was given to him on his bdday.Nothing really fascinating abt it. Noticed that his bedsheet was also forever fren bear pic but mine is nicer…lolx. Next…we all proceeded to the mini but full of stuffs kitchen to prepare the things like-watermelon juice plus honey plus lime.Chewy was cutting the watermelon with beng helping her with it. Shawn concocting some drinks for me using ribena and all sorts of wine.First one I didn’t quite like it and so he made another one with a more conc ribena plus more varieties of wine. This drink was better.Wee beng like it too.I was afraid of being discovered by my parents and so I decided to stop after not more than 10 sips.Wee beng finished the rest of it and soon he was complaining of feeling abit of giddiness.I feel so useless doin nothing.but I managed to help cut another watermelon into small pieces despite the ugly shapes.I was having internal struggle all the while I was in his hse..i was wondering whether to go with them to jy’s hse. But in the end…I did not go…so I didn’t compromise after all. I wanted to sms jy that night but I actually forgot abt it so mayb its just fate.

27th May

Interact Club Installation Day. Finally we the j2s can step down.It was talks and more talks by panel 1 2 and 3….,experiencing technical problem all the time. MC was too soft.Best part was only abt the refreshments..i had two plates of mee goreng …tsk tsk. Everything ended at 12pm and have exceeded the approx time.J1s gave us a small bottle with a little note inside with “All the best for your A lvls”.Expected. So…me and sammy rush down to bugis for gp tution.we were late by abt 15 minutes and mr tong had went to get his lunch I tink.Hmm…something that amused me…I could sense that he was looking at me one sec ago while we were putting down our points and the next sec…he said,”I will always laugh whenever I see yiyuan”(sth like that) and I asked him why….and he says that I am always givin him this expression which I dunno how to describe.
Jes,yu zhu and I went to bugis food court.Only me and jes ate and yu zhu was again looking at us eat.Chewy went to buy something else and so we went our separate ways.We den went to cold storage to buy my choco and “shopping” and sayin what was nice to eat.It was 5pm by den and me and queen walked towards the bus stop.but we stopped for abt ½ hr to look at the live show on 勇不言败.When it was abt to finish…we left and again stopped halfway bcuz kim ng was out and queen wanted to take a look at her.We took the bus home and I slept.

2006-05-19T17:43:00.000+08:00

I've finally decided to reply after all.Honestly speaking,i really no longer bother whether u and I are friends now are just two childish friends having cold war with one another now.All i noe now is to carry on with my life with whatever tt is left,my sch teachers,classmates or even close frens.At first i was concerned,i wanted to console you after what happened to you after block test,i wanted to forget everything and juzt stay by you.But i realize i can't do it after all.I have a strong pride as well.I have never in my entire life apologize to my friends whom i've have let down and i dun tink i ever will.I shall repeat for the last time,no matter whether i noe whether it was my fault or not,i just will not relent and say sorry.But this definitely does not mean tt i do not treasure our friendship.You've seen how i treated jie yan,cried bcuz of him,know how much i treasure my friendship with him.I do not know him better than i noe u but i still treasure my friendship with him.But even till now,do u see me talking to him?I am concern abt him and still prayed for his bro...but i nv even once went up to console him or send an sms to show tt i care.I really feel sorry for myself for being brought up this way and i have only myself to blame if the whole world dislikes me and tt i have no friends.What happened to you and me is just one of the many occurence i've experienced.My ex-frens do take a step further and apologize to me even when i'm at fault but i've nv once came to accept this fact as much as i want to.I do treasure our friendship and,miss the times tgt.It jus times when i feel irritated when u kept mentioning those SAKAE times and take that to "threatened" me and saying that i'm not a gd fren or shld return u the favor for you accompanying me.But shouldn't frens do that,vice versa,w/o asking for anything i turn.But i do noe the childish side of me as well..playing along with you and saying tt i've returned you the favor by lending u my notes PS:I really dun like ppl to mess up my notes.Ok...forget abt all these.I still need to thank you for the times tt you've been for me.I noe part of the reasons why i do not want to apologise,firstly is bcuz i have strong sense of pride and secondly is bcuz i noe i will nv become close frens with you again and in fact feel awkward even if we were to become friends again.I cannot treat as if nothing happened when it indeed has,like u and chewy.Similarly,just like what happened to me and Justin,if u noe what happened.I am still afraid of justin although we have become friends again .But we become friends again not bcuz i apologised but because we are classmates and it's difficult not to be on talking terms when we are doin project tgt.I feel awkward not talking to you in grandstand,tried not to take the same bus back as you,tried to even bring myself to hate you...but what for...this will only bring misery to myself.I have not been visiting your blog as i noe what you've wrote is no longer any concern to me until queen and chewy told me abt what you've written abt us.ANW,all i want is to remain as what we are now...i do not ask for ya forgiveness or whatsoever...i really dun care what consequences i will face now...

2006-05-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

Meaningless post
I have been having dreams lately...probably i didn't get to sleep well.But out of all...i only rmb one and that was Ande sms-ed me and telling me tt he was back from Aust but sending a card to my sis when he didn't noe her...i knew i was feeling jealous but realize it was juz a dream after all..Since then...i have been tinking about what i shld say to him when i see him on the streets one day?Would i be gg forward and saying hi to him...treat as it i didn't see him and deceive myself or stalking him home?Would i have done any of this?Why can't i let go of him?He was juz a IT teacher engaged by peicai sec and i know him barely enuf for him to rmb me as a little girl tried ways and means to get close to him and didn't mind climbling up and down 5 storeys juz to get him his lunch.tinking back..maybe it was foolish of me but i would have done the same things if time were reversed back.I know he was back fom Aust since i was sec 3 but i didn't do anything...having regrets now.

2006-05-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

Finally finally was my last physics spa of my life in nyjc.hope i dun get a chance to retake it again.Chem last spa coming next Fri.haha...i was laughing at benjamin who was taking his first chem spa today.I found out sth juz rite b4 phys spa and wasn't in the best of mood already. And still that bird scolded me for five times...for looking at my notes(yi yuan,keep ur notes)..for taking one paper lesser(turtle)...for writing my name on that crumpled paper(do whatever u can to get that off)...for talking(dun tink i nv see tt) and for not paying attention to the handling up of scripts procedure(day dreaming ar).Fuck the hell out of him lah...i'm so pissed off now.Hmm...dun want to talk to him liao lah...moron stupid ass.Sorry...being vulgar here juz to vent my anger.I was really rushing things during the last 15 minutes of spa...my hand was trembling as i write..i was nervous and i have to go to the extent of using my left hand to support my right hand in order to write.I couldn't control my hand anymore...my handwriting was almost illegible.But glad that i manage to rush out everything on time..maybe missing a few points here and there.

2006-05-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

Everything seems to be in slow motion today and that the world seems to be taking a rest for a very very short moment. But nevertheless...time still past very quickly.Again...we played tennis during pe today and first time queen join us in our game...haha.Went to listen to the NUS business talk instead of the science which i wanted to go to.We had a free wristband while science fac had none.We also have give away vouchers for correctly answered qns.but i didn't noe how to ans bcuz i shut off after 15 mins.BC was there being mesmerize by the guy called david tay who was also an ex- nyjcian from the yr 99-00....one of the guest speaker...now in BBA. Saw mr foo playing tennis with another teacher called mr heng i tink...he was wearing his hse tee as usu.My classmates have been suaning him because his skills is still as lousy as when he started practicing 5 months ago.True that he didn't improve but it was because he were playing with frens that are as lousy as him...shld have asked the pe teachers to play with him wat.Now...i'm starting to like tennis also...hoping to..

2006-05-17T16:04:00.000+08:00

Released earlier from lessons today because we all j2s are supposed to go to tao payoh sports hall to give support to our volleyball girls who got into the final round;and they are up against HCI ...but why today?when chem was at 12.15pm.

The first match started at 2.05pm and HCI easily won the first round...they are strong opponents.But we were up against them till the 5th match which was also the deciding match..15-9...we lost.Although we lost...I'm glad that they have fought till the very last.I've forgotten whether he came during the first or second match tgt with mr ong and mrs lim but i'm also glad that he sat down with mr victor tan cuz he's within my sight..tsk tsk.I'm really impressed by brenda whom i suppose is the star player of the team....aspiring to be like her one day.. star attraction of the day...dream on..
Today's elton big day.happy birthday!

2006-05-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

Finally seen our class photos today...turn out to be quite well overall.i've seen the rest of the class photos as well and many of my frens have guessed why i wanted to buy S3C class photos and so i asked zhi liang for help.but since he may not be able to get his fren on time...den forget it.I've asked ryan for help though...he has agreeed to email me the pics once he gt hold of them.thanx thanx.

2006-05-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

I had tips from my frens here and there but i still blanked out during maths test...

2006-05-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

Had a quarrel with my dad today juz because of a trival matter....shouldn't we look parents upon our real live examples juz like how they tell us, that younger sis muz always follow what the elder sis does?Was i wrong again.I hated myself for being so weak...again i cried after i quarreled with my dad.Since young,i have been telling myself not to cry over such things because i know parents always dun admit their own mistakes...but i juz can't help...I'm juz being over-emotional and although i noe they meant well when they scold me...i juz like to argue with them.i'm no better than them!Afterthis..i couldn't concentrate on studying maths anymore.

2006-05-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

Vesak day today means another day of holiday for me but it also implies that there are more hw to be done.Still haven read up on phys spa cal, have to complete thermodynamics for chem...thermal properties for phys...So3 crv for maths...summary for gp tution...study for maths lecture test comin mon.

2006-05-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

173 more days to A levels.Mr quek was talking to us again durin CT period .Lesser honour roll recepients for this block test..well...as usu...zhi liang gt it again.Most interesting talk given by the principal today cuz he told us story on The lion,The donkey and The fox and even showed us a short movie clip.12 steps...go cookie.It was an interesting one.
Had our chem mock spa test today.Mental block for two parts but luckily i manage to recall at the very last.got back my phys lecture test paper today,23.5/40...i consider that an achievement for myself cuz passing phys is never a hope....wat more scoring an A.I'm still not very sure where i stand now...juz somewhere btw border line maybe.

2006-05-08T03:57:00.000+08:00

oOkie...so mr tay finally passed me the fluids notes.Haha..he collected 60 cents fom me which was supposed to be 63 cents...i "bargain" with him jus because of 3 cents?Queen was saying he is rich enuf to treat the guys to kbox but still need to collect 60 cents from me...ya lor...he so biase.

2006-05-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Went for GP tution..go eat lunch at kfc with chewy and jes.I ordered the most and there were cheesey stains on my clothes.Walking ard in bugis village with my stained clothes..ar muz have looked so terrible.Chewy and I walked for abt 1 hour plus...combed the whole place before deciding on rui yun's b'dae prez.time was dragged to abt 5pm and i nearly couldn't get to meet yi jie to return her comic books on time.luckily she decided to wait for me b4 gg to her grandma's hse.So i rushed to boon keng and sat down inside kfc again ...lookin at ppl walking past me...thru the glass window.She came and we chatted for like 15 mins b4 she gt to go.okie...so she told me abt some bad news abt mr lee.H.L and so this is when i began to hate him.
Took a ride in daddy's new car today..

2006-05-05T14:59:00.000+08:00

Mr Loke was absent for the second time today but this time was because he was sick and not because he needed to attend course.So he can be sick too...forever 18 indeed.

Class photo shoot today.Missing Chun Yong in the photos.At last this time the sch had hired professionals photographers instead of using our very own sch photographers.Took some pics ourselves during free time using pris's cam.

today is wei hao's birthday.happy 19th b'dae.Rui Yun's b'dae is also coming soon...happy b'day to her in advance as well.

Sian...tml got gp tuition already.haven do my sq.

Look at some of the pictures thati've got

2006-05-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

Physics lecture test on fluids and EMI.Needless to say...i have strewed up the entire paper again.Struck right at Qn 1.mr tay will say that i never study again de.I really studied but also no choice if i dunno how to do...like he said before..statistics have shown that gals are always weaker in phys.

I've been blindly following chem and phys spa practices.phys only calculation dunno how to do but my chem?skill A most impt and i have completely,yes completely no idea how to do.shucks la.

2006-05-03T14:50:00.000+08:00

I sat in the first row in chem lab 1 while foonium was teaching..haha.

2006-05-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

Chemistry test was ok...maybe can jus scrape thru..i hope so.Mr Soh is not coming back to teach us anymore..certainly.mr foo came to take over today and he let us do our thermodynamics tutorial, since he predicted most of us have not finished doin.

JY's bro unfortunately passed away today.Everyone was concern and prayed hard but..."qi ji zhong jiu mei you fa shen",the unfortunate still happens.my condolence.

2006-04-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

My third tutor came today.The first thing she did that amused me was that she actually took out her NUS identification card to show me..saying that it's a form of proving her real identity.I took a look at it and woah she was studying in the Yong Lin Medical School which i assume she aspires to become a doc.And also thinking that she is trying to show off how smart she is at the same time.So ya...fluids notes again.Now i've been gg thru it for the third time already.She kept saying our notes is insufficient and said she will bring her notes to show me next time.I asked her,"what sch were you from?"She replied"Hwa Chong".okie...so now that i noe that she's from a top sch,i'm beginning to be afraid of her.I'm afraid of ppl who are smart..inferior me.anw..again she asked if i got the cambridge fluids notes...and i knew it.So mr tay promised to find out for me since he doesn't have it...but where is it?cheater him.Finally i've decided to settle down on her and not change anymore tutor..she seem more than confident than i thought.I'm afraid she will look down on me..sigh.

Today's my last day of tution at tampines and lesson with Jack.Reach there at 2 and regina told me that timing was change to 4pm...Karen didn't inform me.So i was in a classsroom tgt with jack and mario...a J1 guy also from tpjc.haha...jack was seven years older than him.jack was teaching;i was reading thru fluids again. Karen was late..we chatted abt jy and his bro.Karen came and she helped me to take pics as promised.Lesson begins and he went thru ideal gas.Jie Ying was late for abt one hour.diaoow~.Lessons was quite improper...teaching..chatting and laughing thruout the lesson.Grace came and she toked abt how the hairdresser cut her hair at QB hse for $10 ytd..she was there re encountering how bad it was and how her hair was being snipped off...ok...so moral of the story...do not go for 10 mins haircut!it ended up 30 mins anyway.btw..i saw jack's ic today..so tood and he claimed it was cute..wahaha.We promised to meet up at the end of may or beginning of june holidays..his treat =).All four of us.I begin to miss him as soon as i stepped out of the tution center.just tinking of not seeing him every sun from now onwards just make me feel sad.Time flies and it's been almost a year since i go to him for tuition.It was him who helped me improve my physics grade,from grade E to grade C,D that i'm having now.So mr tay...stop saying that he's not good ok.At least he has helped me alot.Still can recall how i was dao-ing him during the first lessons and subsequent lessons at the beginning.Now that i'm used to his teaching mtd...having private tution once again was diff for me to adapt.

2006-04-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

Went to take my ready-made specs in the afternoon after studying 3 hours of chemistry for the upcoming lecture test next tuesday.Arr...i look horrible in it..like green ninja turtles(similar to this shade of green).anw...wasn't the type of frame that i like but limited choices u see.I regretted not choosing the black one instead...should look better and decent.

2006-04-27T13:16:00.000+08:00

Re -took my 2.4km today for napfa.timing better..15.44mins..at least i got my gold now..tsk tsk.

2006-04-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

Sigh...mr soh got come and there goes foo.Ya...so chewy was very happy.Okie..so zhi liang told him that i was unhappy today when mr soh asked me to ans qn.He noes why and he say..."haha..so sorry" and covered a book on his face.

NE trip to st gabriel's sec today.first time step into a boy's sch.So we went there...listened to a overall summary,viewed some exhibits and off we go.

Went back to school to watch synergy full dress reheasal.Missed the dance and CO performance,marcus was performing half way when i stepped into the Lt.Last rehearsal and everything was not settled properly..cue for lightings and mikes was strewed up.Haha....gilbert was the substitute GOH...justin was laughing away. To pay $10 for synergy is really not worth it...BYG was beta.

Aaron's birthday today.jus msged him a few minutes ago to wish him happy birthday.All my frens have grown up.i'm slow.

2006-04-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

Okie...so mr soh didn't come again today.We tot that queenie wong would once come into the class again like last week and so we were prepared this time.took out all or tutorials and TYS and lay them on the table.But..but to my surprise..mr foo stepped into the class at 10.43am and said that he will be taking our class for today.Oh gosh...i was thinking....-----Nah..Zhi Liang was toking abt how happy i was again.Okie..i admit that i wasn't listening at all when i'm suppose to.Luckily i have done my NMR tutorial.So i was distracted by someone who looks like jun yang but i dun care.ya..so mr tay happen to come for his next class and saw mr foo and there he goes...crapping away again.btw..mr foo told us to look for him tml if mr soh again did not turn up like today.

2006-04-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

Long time since i've had sports in the big sea.The very last time was with my npcc mates ,also at kallang but it was kayaking and this time round was dragon boating with some of my classmates. I was glad that the class was very enthu to sign up.
Met up with chewy and queen and shit we missed the bus stop...no,to say it correctly,we didn't know which bus stop to alight and ended up at the bus stop where we have gp tution.So we took the return trip back and luckily we reached lavender mrt station on time.Walked a damn long way to the destination but it definitely reminds me of the gd times i have with my friends previously.The first round was just more of trying out but we tried our best though.Mr tay was sitting in front of me and he was splashing sea water right at my face.Well...i tot i will have my revenge one fine day. We thought that we had got into the third place meaning that we could not get into the next round but results turn out to be that we got into 2nd place.So we cont'd with the 2nd round which i tink is the semi-finals.This time our opponents were strong as we have the kayak racing team 2 tgt with mr victor tan and joel Loo with S7B.Our coordination of timing was good and this again guaranteed us the 2nd place.Our speed was fast this time round and our timing improve by about 1 min.thanx to jun hao as well.It really turned out to be that we had the timing that was the fastest among those boats that got into sf as well.So...we ended up competing against the db J1 team,kayak racing team 1 n2 in the grand finals.We really put in our last effort during this race. We came in last and lost to the j1 kayak team only by a few secs.The timing was confusing ...could hear the power ten command at all.Although this is so...we were already very glad that we had secured the 4th position in this entire event.Our class was the only class who got into grand finals. :) Although our timing was faster than the judo team but they got the third prize instead of us in the plate finals.But nvm...we went to celebrate at KFC ourselves.Free flow of drinks..haha.The first time i'm so proud of 05S6E.
Look at how fast we were! Boat 4

Tired me.

Us.TEAM TIDE!!Can u spot which one is our teacher?

2006-04-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

Waited for HS but he didn't turn up.receive a msg from him saying he would be late.I was almost late for sch too.

2006-04-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

Today is my da jie Connie's birthday.Would like to wish her a happy 19th birthday here.Haiz...haven been able to shop for her prez since too buzy at school or otherwise have to go to J8 again where there is nothing new.So perhaps have to give her a belated one like wat bj got also.5ts1 really very long nv get tgt le leh.Really miss those times.but chewy nv turn up for our outing except the one that we stayed overnight at connie's hse. Our blog i also long time nv go update le la..anw...no one bothers.

Also...my 2nd tutor came today.He juz graduated from MJC two years ago. He didn't came prepared and was jus browsing thru my notes and didn't teach much.I told him to go home after one hour for he couldn't teach me since he couldn't recall any topic at all.Decided to give him another chance and so i asked him to cont'd next sat.Jack was sick and the lesson was cancelled.

2006-04-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

Went for lecture than proceed to bugis for lunch b4 gg for gp tution.Heard from wb that mr tay helped them to pay for the kbox fee.If i know earlier that he was gg to help us pay den i would also have gone for the outing le.Told wb to jio him out again...haha.also knew that they went to the arcade....typical guys.

2006-04-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

today is good friday.yeh...can skip phys spa prac.gg to sch for extra maths lecture on probability tml.and the probability that i'm gg to fall asleep in lecture tml is almost 99 percent.

2006-04-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

Foolish me..actually mistook her for his gf...really made a fool out of myself this time.I know Lincoln and friends have been tokin abt us but we are still as what we are now and will remain so in the future.Mr Foo was the one giving chem remedial today.me and yu went to sit at third row from the front.So cool....first time i could actually see him for so long.But remedial end at 6 plus and i end up having to rush for the pgss band concert.So the toa payoh hub auditorium wasn't ttbig after all.Saw my frens and ya they didn't change much except aaron who seem to grow taller and first time seeing ade and wl wearing specs.PGSS band really sucks...nothing compared to ny band..haha.But its a good exposure for them though.Greenview sec on the otherhand was beta,ya ppl gt silver for syf de.pgss only got bronze. The songs they played was like a lullaby....causing me to want to fall asleep.took some piz thanks to johnson,will upload it here once i receive it from him.Went to eat mac after the concert for dinner.Saw patrick and wei kang,exchanged a few words and they all seem to be doin fine to me.ben low and kai quan still act as if they dunno me even after so long.Went home with LP after a long day.

ya...forgot to mention that i ran my 2.4km for napfa today.perhaps it was because i have not exercised for a long time..stamina dropped and ended up with a timing of 16.04mins which means i have missed my gold jus bcoz of the 14 secs.haiz...but it actually helped me to stretch my muscle and aided me to reach 47cm for my sit and reach.Decided to retake my 2.4 if i can pass my standing broad jump next week.

Impt things to mention.Finally got back my pw results today.Our group did farely well...all of us got a band two except marcus who got one.but he deserves it...it was his idea that we worked on and we receive pos comments on it.I was happy and i could see that glenn was happy too.It was the first time he was offering me a sweet and i gladly took it.But sad to say,on the whole..our class did badly..many got a band 3.and only 76 percent of ny students got band 1/2.Other schools were having up to 90 plus percent.

2006-04-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

I actually feel sad after reading one of my "fren's" blog and after reading the mr unknown's msg for me.lots of feelings and emotions jus came...making me lose my appetite for the supper that i'm gg to eat after blogging now.

2006-04-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

The class signed up for the dragonboat fun race and we included mr tay in without asking for his permission first.but the guys said that he sure no problem de since he so ON.Some more still jio the guys out to K box coming this Fri.Mr tay can sing?mr tay vs marcus?mr tay vs mr soh?dun need listen also noe who will be defeated le lor.tink mr tay only noes how to sing the song that he invented.Here is how it goes:''NY de xue sheng man man pa,man man pa",lame song rite.Yup...enuf abt him.Looking forward to next sun.

2006-04-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today woke up damn early juz to wait for the new private tutor to come today.ok...he was late cuz he couldn't find his way to my hse.So he started off with the first page of fluid lecture notes and read in details,until halfway when he tot that there wasn't much to explain den he realize that it was in fact juz a summary page.WTH.So he carried on with the second pg and skipped the first example for he tink it was too easy until i asked him on eg 2 part iv.he read the qn and say woah...at ya lvl got so chim want meh.den he started to stare at the qn for a good 5 minutes.I could see him playing with his fingers...seem to be calculating sth.okie...so he end up saying,sry,i never see this type of qn before...dunno how to do...will go home and check it out for you.And he started copying the qn and solutions down.I was like huh..waste my time.All thanx to the tution agency who claims how good he was and what scholarship he gets.All bullshit.He was like regurgitating all that was on the notes itself but of course with some explanation here and there.Reading out loud dunno for me or for himself den repeating again line by line for explanation.Dun tink he came prepared at all although i told him what topic to teach b4hand.Seriously,i dun tink he noes how to teach at all,much worse than jack even.Took up the whole 2hrs juz to go thru the notes w/o doin any qns.So....i ended up sms-ing jasmine and request for a replacement of tutor for the next lesson.She asked me for the reason and few hours later,she asked me if i want to have a tutor teaching in ACJC currently because she tot that cher could teach more at a shorter period but the fees would increase up to $50 per hour.I was like u noe how much the total increase will add up to.Just admit that you do not have any more tutors under you who are willing to teach JC students and i will just go for another tution agency...why bother me with all these unnecessary things when i made myself clear rite from the beginning.

After this tution den went for my second last lesson with jack.ok...now its my turn to wait for jack and karen to turn up for regina didn't bother to tell me that the time was postpone to a later time.Karen wanted to go thru charged particles when i was expecting him to go thru fluids.well..this is the disadvantage when two or more ppl from diff schs come tgt for tution.Jack showed us he and his gf photos after lesson.The neoprints they took was super dooper cute la....some more gt a few pix of him kissing with his gf...ahha.his gf was also younger and smarter than him lor. stoopid him...forgot to bring his notes for me again.

2006-04-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

Finally we were not late for GP tution this time!

2006-04-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

Ended school as early as 1.15pm but have to stay back for BYG's qing gong yan which is at 5.30pm,WTH!But i stayed back willingly...cuz there was food to eat..yummy~~Only bcuz of this reason that i stayed back!At least i completed my complex tutorial 1 which i spend 4 hours doin in the lib.got to noe some problem that my ex-fren encountered and i was kinda sad for she couldn't persevere till the end but also partly due to many factors and pressure given to her. She was there and i couldn't go nearer.Some part of me wanted to think her to be as irritating as possible so as not to "soften" myself, to do wat i do not want to do the most.okie..so the "cel" started off with teachers toking and here we go...makan time.The food was cold and i complained alot...well,i was a fussy pig.So i went home right after eating...sigh...really there to eat only,not much interaction at all.

2006-04-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

The survey shouldn't have been like that.too scary for me.girls really think that the pace is ok for us but definitely not for the guys.There are no two ways to solve the problem...you can only satisfy one.you are not right these few days and we feel uncomfortable whenever you dun come to disturb us. pls be back to your original self.I still need lots of help from you.

2006-04-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

What are friends?
To me, friends are just ppl who are closer than family but yet ppl whom you cannot completely trust.We tell our problems to our close friends,friends or even strangers whom we dun know but never our own family members.Why?because i feel that friends will never betray you.But often than not,they are always the one talking behind your back and telling others about your own problems.Although friends often ask me for advices..if it is about results in school or dropping a subject...they will just give advice on the surface..like me for example,i will just push the problem back to the person itself cuz i tink i am not in the position to give advices to ppl when i cannot even handle my own problems.And of course,no matter how close friends are,human beings will always remain selfish,yes and this is a typical characteristics of humans that god created in us.I will often end up giving advice that is of advantage to myself and not my friendS.I tell my problems to my friends only hoping to let someone sort of share the burden with you and at the same time dun let myself bottom up everything b4 i go crazy one day.Thinking about it,its sometimes better to store certain things in the "microchip" in our head rather than put our problems here,in this blog,for fear that others will critize about it
.It could be the language or the content which may sound real stupid to others but not yourself.When i see my friends cry, i can be there for them,listen to their problems and be a very good listener but i can never be one who can console ppl.But at least i can keep the problems to myself,just like a psycharist who keeps information confidential.Things will only go worse if i say further.I tink we can never find "true" friends who understands ourself well enough to be able to accomodate all my faults and the mood swings,share bad and good days with you.Like how the adults shun one another when one is in need of money or went bankrupt.we cannot ignore the fact that this is the harsh reality of the world,no matter it is the past,present or the future.I always think that i am always the one accomodating my friends,wherever they want to go and what they wanna do..i just simply follow.but thats not always the case i assume,my friends will think likewise as well.but sometimes i can be very demanding and stubborn,must have what i want and do things my way...but my friends will always ignore me and think that i am childish.I know it.Mr Tay twice said that i was a spoiltbrat...and i tink he's right as well.Friends will tink that i'm being spoilt rotten by my parents and that is why.But i can tell you that its not the case at all,i can never have my way at home and that is why i tend to behave differently in school compared to the obedient me who never scold vulgar at home.Even Ande knows that.Just had a quarrel with two friends recently and ya...i know myself and i will never be the one apologizing..dats just me..can't help!As much as i wanted to avoid arguments,w/o the argand diagram..haha..i just somehow seem to forever be in conflicts with my bestees.Things that friends will nv do with you...accompany you on long journeys,share exams tips..etc.In conclusion..friends are just like gas bubbles which appears and disappears in rivers big or small...like how they disappear in our life when we need them most.

2006-04-05T02:20:00.000+08:00

Okie..i've been kept in the dark all along by someone.He's been reading our blogs and knowing lots of our stuffs,which den cause some troubles in school because of wat my fren wrote in his entries.I dun really understand why u need to read our blogs...are the entries which are mostly unrelated to you interesting.Was it your way of spying us and keeping track of wat we are doin?I know that by blogging,we are actually throwing away our privacy and i would rather you not tell me that you actually read our blogs.Are all ppl of your catagory like that?Bewildered me.Now,some ppl are really beginning to hate you for wat you've done!

Need to thank mr tay for staying back to teach us electromagnetic induction till he explain untill he vomits blood..haha

2006-04-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

Quarrelled with a fren again...ok...my fault again..but i hack le!

2006-04-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

Today was the opening ceremony for international friendship week aka IFW.I was in the IFW committee and therefore have to come as early as 6.45am to do the last minute touch up.Sry for not informing hong siang that i will not be meeting him.ya...because last friday nv go for meeting den have to kana escort mr kwek from the platform to the place where the banner is to be unveiled.Ended up sweeping the "rubbish" that were placed inside the banner b4hand.Break for the period was gone as i was helping out in setting up the stand and info onto the panels.

2006-04-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 7 plus to get ready to go to the MINDS sch for the very last time to help out in the schools carnival.roped in our classmates to help out in this event as well.i volunteered to be in the photo taking team and we were lucky to meet zen and valenssa who were really nice guys.Zen especially...talked to him alot and found out how it was like being in the advertising field,how he works-being a part time lecturer in poly and coping with his own business and doing volunteering work,how sucessful he were and how he met his gf in minds.i tink that he really has a big heart,is rich and not bad-looking as well.valenssa was oso very generous...kept buying food and drinks for us.We three was also kept buzy all the while while customers was streaming in.We could take our photos and laminate it for free...took quite a few but we all paid them $1 each.Zen was pro at handling the software and editing the pics...and valenssa was a goog photgrapher as well.made the photos look nice.Saw zainal and lynette and shen li but was quite disappointed when i didn't see shafiq an wai loong(Both were my favourite students in the class).All ended well and the school thank us by giving us a goodie bag.We were rushing in the end when we knew that our gp tution was postpone to 4.30 instead of 7.30pm.
ya...as usual..we were late for gp tution.Watched the Larry Flynt show again today and have a bit of understanding finally.

2006-03-29T08:17:00.000+08:00

Took back chem paper today when we all expected it to be returned only on thurs.jia lat lor...now my chem have degraded to a D grade which is worse than phys la.dunno how to face mrs tan le la.

I finished the last bit of the alkaline shampoo today.(revising chem..haha).oso jia lat...dunno how my hair will take the new shampoo tml.

2006-03-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

took back my maths and phys results today.didn't really expected myself to score an A...i noe its tyco de lor...perhaps it is bcuz my favourite topic macdonalds was tested. physics..this time i'm proud to say that i've achieved my target for A lvls...a C.but dunno how much my grade will drop after subtracting the two wrg mcqs ans.but its ok de la...as long as i can pass...gd enuf for now still. Expect to score beta for paper 2.

Went to do interact stuffs again after sch.Huey yan told me about how they broke up and made me realize how mean he was to her.Wrong judgement right from the beginning.

2006-03-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

Finally jy was willing to come for his last phys tution with mr.jack.i was late and jack was worse than me.i wanted to end at 3.15pm today so that i can meet up with chewy in time to go for gp tution.so he only manage to teach me till the part where it talks abt Faradays law.OK...i reach the mrt station only to realize that we have 20 stops altgt and time was running out.So again,we rushed like mad.yup,we are consistent late comers.
Today had to attend gp make-up lesson no matter wat or i'll be lagging behind the rest.So there was really a huge grp of ppl today.Went to have dinner at long john's with ah beng,shawn who chatted without stopping,justin.yi wen and chewy.proceeded to shop for bj's prez which we had owe for a long time and we bought a "dustin" and tee-shirt for him lor.cost about $70 altgt but as usu,we have shawn to flash his card anytime,anywhere.

Was suppose to make a card for bj which i den realize dat i've lost my glue.needless to say...it muz be my sis-the thief in the hse again.true enuf....evidence was found.but suay suay...she saw me searching her bag and we quarrelled.She can lie without blinking her eyes and argue that she nv ever stolen my stuffs.She cried.but guess wat..she was up and about ,toking (which i presume is a guy) on the phone as per normal.she have really changed,no longer care how ppl look at her.

2006-03-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

Finally we've changed our tution timing to sat afternoon..no longer have to spend a meaningless afternoon after sch ended on fri and reach home only after 12am.tried takin bus 51 to bugis today and luckily it was faster than the 81..moving at snail speed in the traffic.but we couldn't find the bus stop for the return journey and ended up walking one big round bugis junction.TV mobile was showing the melbourne smaller version of sea games...forgotten wat was it named.table tennis was up.and s'pore man's doubles won and clinched the silver medal.impressive.but wat i realize is that almost all winners who rep s'pore were from China.okie...really no discrimation here.but y s'poreans still cannot produce talents after such a long time?Went to look for my shampoo in hougang area and i tink i'm dead...not a single one available and its finishing soon.sigh...

2006-03-24T17:06:00.000+08:00

Block Test is finally over.

Maths-although many ppl have already mentioned it in their block,i still wanna say it here.the itchy hand teacher dunno do wat untill most of the light went dim.except dat the screen still projects "Cheating is an offence"..lol.We were all toking in the "dark" while doin the test.Help came finally and mr.Tham with one touch of a switch,he turned the whole lt1 back into total brightness again.the paper was ok but still i like maclaurin's series the best!

Chemistry-sucks like hell..was playing guessing game with cher thruout the whole paper.

Physics-surprisely.paper 2 was easier than paper 1.and i would say they set quite reasonably ok but not ok for me only.

2006-03-04T02:11:00.000+08:00

Today was the second actual BYG Performance.Before we report for work today,me bx and melissa went to kovan to buy flowers and choco for tian tian and yi ting and we were abt 2 minutes late.i was juz beginning to pour the mee siam gravy when i heard the mass meeting was abt to start.I rush to finish eating b4 going into the LT.But still, i was once again kana reprimanded my tian tian.Angry lor.
i opened the door entrance slightly earlier today and everything was same as ytd except dat we had change the door entrance of another pair to the one on lvl 2 and me still remaining on lvl 1 and dat there was no vip today.huang lao shi had given us a debrief b4hand.more children coming in today.Frens from pgss came as well.only three teachers from pgss came despite many of them bought the tix.ZhilLiang,Xuan Sheng,Pris and Jes also came today.After the whole performance, some crew was crying really bad.some buzi taking pics and some hugging tgt.only our group stood there and stone.partly bcuz we had no camera la.i took some pics with my class,helped to clear up and went home after a tiring day.

2006-03-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

Finally today was the actual BYG performance.We all reach at abt 11.30pm and slack till it was 5pm.The whiteboard deco was also finally done today.With the help of wei yi of course.There was suppose to be a "bai tai" yi shi but bx didn't wanted to and so i accompanied her. i was given the job to be the "ticket-tearer"(sorry,dunno wat post was dat call).I opened the door entrance which was at lvl 1 LT4 at 7.05pm.Audience started streaming in and i was quite bad at tearing the "piao gen" partly because of my nervousness.I started to sweat even more when there was more audience coming in at ard 7.15pm and i couln't work fast enuf.needed the help of a teacher and bx dat time.i was simply juz to buzi to even notice dat mr foo was right in front was me.i was like STUN for a sec b4 i tore the ticket that he handed to me personally..haha.Apologize to connie for hanging up for phone call when i was toking to her halfway...simply bcuz i was too buzy.But thanz Shawn, Connie,Yu Zhu,Samantha and Wan ting for turning up to support us.Shawn did mention dat Jiang Shuang will come todat but still didn't manage to see her in the end.

2006-03-02T20:41:00.000+08:00

I'm going to flock my Chem SPA again.Mr Soh was the one invigilating us today.He was vey good lor...go ard reminding everyone to fill up wat was forgotten. Durin the whole experiment,i was like trying to get the water lvl in the burette tube near the 0.0 mark but everytime i invert it,it was either overshot or far below the initial marking.damn it la.The graph was even worse, not like wat my fren had described to me.time was running out and i had no choice but to cheat.but i tink mr soh knew abt it.Everything was disastrous.

2006-03-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

It was the release of A and AO results today.There was much antipation and waiting.Our seniors are back to NY college sch compound once again,in all kinds of dressing now...no longer wearing the brown uniform.This is going to be the last time i'm seeing him b4 i leave this college at the end of this year like all seniors do.unless he comes back for counsel gathering.The atmosphere in the hall..i would not say its tense but I guess well,its kinda relax and like get-tgt-session.No seniors were familiar with mr quek and no one bothered to listen except a few.Those who were called upon the stage was those who got 3A's and above.Hq was one of them,Sumitro as well.Everyone who got up was like well-prepared,as if they noe they will do well b4hand.The top student in our sch this year was a guy scoring 8 distinctions.Damn smart de la.After dat den its our turn to go back class to get chinese AO result le lor.So relieve and yet disapointed at the same time.relieve because i did not do worse than expected and disappointed because i did not score a distiction in chinese for it was sota my best subject.if i cannot even do well for this subject,den wat more the rest.I could see ppl cryin and i tell myself that i do not wanna be like them next year.

Today is also the first full tech run for BYG and the air con in LT4 will be be switched on till thurs.So hot and stuffy.Cont'd doin our deco for whitboard today.My dad came to drive me home today and it was me who indirect cause him to tio fine and -3 for his demerit points.but i also wu ke nai he de la...who ask me still needa study for tmls spa.

2006-02-27T13:23:00.000+08:00

Went to buy dinner for byg members b4 going home.

2006-02-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

CCS meetin at LT4 before proceeding to work on the 2 whiteboards.huang how wei lao shi was going ard taking pics with his camera.had my first lunch with byg crew members today. And had sundae with melissa at mac after dat.

2006-02-24T12:58:00.000+08:00

Very first day of GP tution at Bugis,Food of Thought.the place was like damn small but at least the 13 of us manage to crowd ard a few combined tables.i nv tot that i wld one day attend gp tution cuz i knew dat my eng-lish was beyond hope.I would say that although Mr.Tong Yee's was sort of able to make me able to stay attentive thru out his lesson, only i/4 of wat he said goes into my mind or maybe even less.Maybe it was bcuz of my lack of reading newspapers and stuffs liddat,the little knowledge of mine simply didn't allow me to understand wat was being discussed,among him and my frens.but since it's the first lesson still...i shall see how it goes along next tym. Had been discussing among jes and chewy whether to switch our timing to this time slot cuz we all know the reason why.

2006-02-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

Arrh...muddleheaded me.Buzy doin maths tutorial on trapezium rule.Didn't manage to blog on time yesterday to wish him happy birthday.If you r wondering who he is...yes..it's Ande.His bithday was just one hour b4 now...i am late.i like 210278 alot..want to see him again.=0.Forgot to wish him on time for the first time since then.
Shall sing him a birthday song here as compensation ba.Happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday to Ande,happy birthday to you.Love ya lotx.Muacks...hehe.

2006-02-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

Physics SPA once again.it'S on skill D this time .i started to panic right at the beginning when i couldn't obtain a reading for my experiment.but the worse thing was to keep on scratching my hand and controlling my itchness.After the lab session,mr tay den told me dat he actually wanted to tell me to stop scratching but he couln't bcuz it was under exam condition.ife is like hell now.

2006-02-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

I'm back to sch today.And it's also V.day tOday.Sort Of like really cel v.day for the first time cuz there was many receiving of prez and giving prez to my angel and mortal.thanx my angel(justin),wee beng xuan sheng,bi xia, samantha,yu rong,shengli,tiong li,serene,connie and esp mr.gilbert tay for all ya prez.It was veri sweet of him to buy us glass petal flowers for our clasS gals.it'S the purple flower on the right.I will treasure it.those memories and prez dat are non-edible =) .

2006-02-13T11:55:00.000+08:00

Rashes was getting even worse...even my face also kana le.Had to go see the doc for a jab immediately.Wanted to proceed for sch but decided not to at the last minute juz in case my fren...jian yi ge, siam yi ge lor.bUT also gd cuz can take excuse to rest at home.anw its econs day at sch today.was told dat i was allegic to cotrimoxazole,phew..wat a long name.more pills to take now.

2006-02-11T09:48:00.000+08:00

Attended a course for all cip reps today.especially long n boring day.but i wld say dat at least the sch doesn't treat us too badly.cuz there's all kind of 'cuisines' for us.Greedy us grabbed 5-6 plates at one go.

2006-02-10T12:27:00.000+08:00

Rashes was getting more itchy and i need to see the doc badly today.

2006-02-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

Gave out the honey combed choco to my frens today and tried floorball for pe today.Long tiring day.Broke a delivering tube durin chem prac and paid $0.30 for it.First experience for everything today.

2006-02-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

Went to the MINDS Sch at Yio Chu Kang to do cip for the very first day.Was very afraid as there was many unfamiliar pple.Kids was running all over and knocking into me.The v.p Mrs Teng was kind enough to explain to us the admin work and take us ard the sch.Though the sch building was old,everything was there.What surprised me was the varieties of CCAs that the school offers and the nice drawings that the students there could draw.Me and bi xia was assigned to class JP1 which was a junior class.I saw how Ms ugh, the form class teacher was very patient with her students.Some student hugged me,"molested me" as a way to welcome us or some tryin to be funny by looking at our tags for a few times.Though it has a small class size,i find it difficult to handle even one small kid.Esp those who can be quite naughty and stubborn(resilient) at times. Home Econs was their lesson than and everyone have to pack up and go to the ......(will fill in nxt time).It was an effort to make everyone leave promptly.It was a joy when i see the kids wanting to hold my hands while gg towards their venue.

They had to learn how to smash the potatoes,put in magarine and mixed them b4 putting a small scoop on the chips.To me,it was a simple task but to them it was like 20 times harder.There was one malay boy,althought he was the naughtiest boy but he was also one of the smartest.Finished his cooking faster than the rest.Mr Tan was very stubborn,he refused to let go of the bowl he was washing for dunno how many times.

Lesson ended at 5pm and everyone went for flag lowering b4 taking the bus home.It was a fulfiling trip.

2006-02-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

First Maths Common Test of the year on Diffentiation,Mac Series,Curve Sketching.Wasn;t really a diff test but i wld be happy enuf if i can score a pass for it.

2006-02-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

No more afternoon pe from now till may.My frens who are in it...jia you orh.

2006-02-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Tot i could wake up later b4 gg for tution but li rong wanted to have meetin therefore have to wake up at 11 plus to get ready.Long boring meeting it was b4 i rush all the way to tampines for tution.Grace from IJC was a new student who came to join us for tution.Zzz.But sadly after a day,karen said that she was lagging behind and wanted individual tution.And so G n K wa scheduled another day leaving me and jy once again.Was entrusted to distribute and hand over the bag and choco to ser and punggolites.Zzz.That bastard said that the clothes that i wear was below $10 and bought at pasa malam.I admit that i have poor dress taste,not that well off and not gd a figure.but i need to say that the clothes that i wear is definitely not $10 and below.Should u have bother yourself with others,why not take a look at yourself first!You are no better than me!!!

2006-02-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

Actual Day For Chingay
I was not so stupid as to sit and wait at the assembly area anymore.Our clique helped one another to so call dress or prepare ourselves up in order to suit the Chingay mood in the evening.Sprayed the purple t.dye on my hair and had my pony tail plaited.The food that was distributed to us,the bean sprouts have turned sour but the rest was ok.but i chose to eat at the food court instead.And in addition shared a mcchicken burger with chewy at Mac.It was drizzling all day and we had to wear our poncho.The place we was standing was bad.View was not gd as yesterday as our spot only allow floats to pass by.We had to sit on our used ponchos after the rain had stopped bcuz of the wet ground.me,jes,lisan n lucy ran all the way to paragon toilet to answer the call of nature.wanted to join the party but returned to assembly area instead.Luckily the in harge didn't drag our time and let us off early.Returned home earlier than yesterday.

my hair

2006-02-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

Chingay Preview
It was like whole day of waiting and waiting juz outside Ngee Ann City.Had more than enough "Polar" Mineral Water to last me for the entire day.Dinner finally came and as expected it was lunch boxes with plain rice, some spring rolls and chicken.We walked along the stretch of orchard b4 settling down in front of the sector 2 tix holders seat.The view was great den...could feel myself totally being absorbed into the performance.But the irritating in charge kept on askin us to watch the audience instead of back facing them.I was thinking like why the hell shld u face them whem they did not have time to bother abt ur existence at all.The performance i like best is the one with pple controlling the 3 main and 2 small lions using the strings from the back.And also not to forget the 15 year old handsome cute guy singing love song...ahha.Reach home jus before 12am and arr,my whole body was aching.Can't imagine how i'm gg to survive tml.

2006-02-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Went to support Boon Jun for The One in the preliminary round.And after that rushed all the way to take bus 100 to people's association for final round of Chingay training.It lasted for only one hour plus and it was like a complete waste of time over there.Main focus that i wanna mention today is that instead of walking backwards to find a bus stop where there are buses to take us home,me,chewy and queen walked all the way to aljunied mrt station for 20 mins,passing by all the delicious food like frog porridge along the way.As much as i wannastop and eat,i just contined walking .Met lily at the bus stop and me saw a suspicious man looking at us,lucily he didin't follow us up the bus or the consequences wld be bad i guess.

2006-01-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Stayed at home cuz no place to visit already.Watched the first episode of Survivor's Law today.Nice.

2006-01-29T22:38:00.001+08:00

Today is day 1 of cny.Woke up at 9 plus and went to uncle's house to receive my first ang-bao.Was quite bored by the television programs shown and had to stuff my mouth with some new year goodies to keep myself awake.We left and proceeded to my mum's side family and we had sort of "reunion dinner" just today.Steamboat with lots and lots of different shapes and sizes of abalone family.Practically,i was having just abalone for lunch.Sat down for a game of chinese chess and found myself s*** at it.Felt that we needed a bit of exercise and so me and my three younger cousins went to the nearby basketball to have a game of it.And thats when i knew that two of them were in their school basketball team and even the one youngest played better than me.I'm not really cut out for any intellectual test,sporting games and games that need thinking.Learnt how to play majiong again today and i sort of know the hang of it already although i still need more time to think while it was my turn.Sis and parents went home first while i cont' to stay to hone my majiong skills.Had maggie mee with additional abalone for dinner while watching the program for the day,Superstar Part II.Went home by myself with only $1.10.

2006-01-27T16:33:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone out there!

2006-01-15T18:43:00.000+08:00

Tution timing was changed to 11am instead of the usual 10am.I was actually not informed by anyone and i wasted a whole two hours cursing them.Later knew that it was jie yan who didn't inform me abt it."gai si de jia huo."We went to have lunch after tution and i saw Jack with his gf while waiting for bus no. 3 to get home.

2006-01-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

Another Chingay training at srjc today.Stepped into the sch at 7.44am.Chewy didn't come today cuz was not feeling well.Scan down the list to find my name but didn't see it cuz everyone was squeezing plus the fact that i was too short.But Serene spotted my name at one look...i actually was blind enuf not to see my name being printed on the first under the many lists.Tried looking for chewys name but her name ws not there.strange.first was the talk followed by ice breaking and our lead was all j1,one from njc and one from srjc.training was boring,same things were taught.Queen was in the qrf team,only 20 were selected.lucky her.Went home with lucy-new made fren from ny and slept the day thruout after.

2006-01-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Had interact meeting in the afternoon and we were supposed to help tear the flyer into two and give out the flyers at the assigned area after that.Me,liyi and bi xia were given one carton of flyers to be given out door to door at two areas in toa payoh.Consisting of abt 28 block,14 per area...want us to die izzit.I carried the whole box all the way from sch to the bus stop outside.Waited long for the bus.Lily placed the box on her lap and the whole box toppled with 1/4 of the flyers "spilling" out while she was trying to get up and carry her bag to alight.Luckily some ppl helped us to pick up the flyers or we would have caused the entire lot in the bus to wait for us.We went to the blks tgt and all of us were competing with each other;see who will finish giving out first.Finished juz a few blks and we were feeling tired and sitting down already.That Yan Xing by den den call us to say that we no need to go door to door liao bcoz its time consuming.So we went the postbox of every hse unit to insert the flyers.3 hours past and we were completely exhausted,couldn't take it anymore b4 calling yan xing to send replacement over.Three of us finished one area b4 another two came to take over.Hunger was there,drainng us of our energy making us feel weaker every sec.Stopped by at mac to have our dinner and we talked abt things happening in sch.I kept mentioning 3 bulging stomach-es and bx insist that there were 4 after our dinner.Told her i will mention these in my blog and she was determined to do so and she did.Indeed there were 3 bulging stomach-es...i assure u!

2006-01-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

Physics first lecture test based on holiday assignment today.it was a breeze for me as it was exactly the same questions and mainly can juz completely rely on memory.Supposed to have mock chem test on organic chem as well but was cancelled due to the ogls request...ha...luckily i didn't study for it.

2006-01-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

First reading program of the year.Askin us to write 10 s'pore authors name and their books and 5 book titles.First three to submit got prize wor.

2006-01-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

Went for tution again and he taught us temperature.Jie Yan didn't come today cuz he was buzi with his house moving ceremony.We were kana locked in the tution centre today and luckily Regina came back on time to release us..haha.It was raining cats and dogs and Karen's dad drove me home juz now.Accidentally left my calculator in the car and had to go all the way to karen's hse to take it back cuz havin phys test on thurs.

2006-01-04T16:08:00.000+08:00

Finally seen the faces of our new principal,mr Quek and vice-principal,Mr Chng.Mr Quek have given his first assembly talk today and as usual nothin interesting,all the rules and regulations and expectations of us.I have also seen our new GP tutor,Mr Tong Yee today.In the past,i have heard of how good he was and stuffs like that.After attending his lesson today,although nothing was taught because the ogls and counsellors were not here,i totally agree with them.His speech is those kind that will inspire and motivates others.I actually felt for the very first time in ny that my GP could be saved.He also assured us that he can help us achieve at least a B4 for our A levels.He really touched me with his words today.

2006-01-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of sch.Saw lots of new faces of the J1s..many from different different schools.More students from good schools coming over to ny.Though a good news but it also means more stress for some.Ogls dominating all over ny..welcoming juniors with heartfelt warmth.All separated into OGs,reminds me of the first time i enter ny as well!Only 4 ppl from pgss came over and heard tt many of them went over to sajc and ajc.Smarter than my batch..haiz.Zhen de shi qing chun yu lan sheng yu lan.Chang jiang hou lang tui qian lang...hou lang si zai sha tan shang ar.!

2006-01-03T01:52:00.000+08:00

Last day of dec holiday was a complete freak out for me.Tutorials not yet finished and i'm still happily slacking away.Although i still try v.hard to fit some time for doin hw into the watching tv time slot.The holidays..i do not dare say tt it have been spent wisely but one thing for sure is that at least i have spent 35hrs of my time doin cip at the lib.Another would be doin cip for the heartware network.The rest of the time ma...sleeping up to 17 hrs per day,watching korean shows and tv programmes...haha.But they all very nice de wor.titles like little bride 18,firebird,romantic president,superfunkie,princess diaries etc.
Dun feel the "high" feeling anymore.Usu when sch starts at the beginning of the year,i will not be able to sleep at all..but now...it was juz like sian..another typical sch day like any other day.

2006-01-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Chiong-ing my tutorials now.bzbzbzbzbz.